Sinister: Lots of words from a swedish 15-year-old girl.

[Astrid Wiezell]

Hello sinister sweeties!

Autumn (or do you say fall?) has really hit Sweden now. The trees are becoming more and more red, and leaves are falling down from the trees, and It´s becoming more.. chilly, and suddenly you see people with mittens, scarves and coats. It all changed over a weekend, quite weird... Anyway, I like the autumn, everything becomes even more beautiful and walking around in the park nearby our apartment is just really lovely, so many colours and that kind of crispy feeling in the air... Aaah..


Yesterday, I went on a kind of meet-up from a message board, not about B&S but a swedish lovely guy named Håkan Hellström. I´ve met him, and he´s absolutely fabolous. We were about seven persons (most of the people live in other parts of Sweden than Stockholm, so there wasn´t as much people as you would have wished for). It was a bit like a sinisterpicnic, but without the alcohol, the actual picnic and... Hmm.. I just realsied by writing that that it wasn´t anything like a sinister picnic (I´ve never been to one, sincie I am swedish, but anyway..). But we were just seven girls (none of the boys could make it!) that first met ouside a subway station, and then we all went to a big big big café whre you can just sit around, make badges, t-shirts and all that stuff, it´s really cool, It´s called lava and I love it. I made a couple of B&S-badges there a couple of weeks ago, they look dead nice. Anyway, we went to see a band that were doing a little gig in a record store and afterwards signing records and oher things for the fans. they are called The Plan, and quite good. The drummer was sweet, I got a hug from him, but he seemed a bit... tense. 

Before The Plan went on the ministage in the store, me and those seven other girls spotted a FABOLOUS swedish aritst called Magnus Carlson who makes almost disgustingly beautiful music. So we kind of went up and asked if he could sign some stuff for us, and he was the nicest person I´ve ever met I think. He was so sweet and just very NICE. He signed my songbook (a little notebook where I write my songs for the band I´m in. It´s just one yet, but I´m working on it) and wrote "To Astrid! Good luck with the songs! Magnus Carlson", and he drawed a big heart with an arrow through it. When I said goodbye I said liek "Well, good luck with your music, I love it so much, it´s such a fantastic record" and he smiled and replied "Well, I can only wish the same for you". I was really euphoric after that :)

I also took a great chance yesterday. In that record store, which is a chain of stores that are really big, like a swedish HMV, a very beautiful boy works and whom I couldn´t stop looking at, he was so incredibly BEAUTIFUL. Later in the afternoon I went back to that store, alone, and lurked around looking at him (he and this other girl were in teh information desk). All of the sudden I hear his voice coming out of the speakers:

"Dear customers, It´s know 16:55, and it´s only five minutes til this store will close for the day. We hope you´ve had a nice day, welcome back tomorrow"

And hen I looked a the information desk, he wasn´t there!

And then I see him. He is walking from another room towards the information desk. So I stop him and say liek "Um sorry to bother you but.. um.." and he say "Yes?" and I just take a deep breath and say "I just thought I´d tell you that I think that you are very beautiful" (Actually, I think I said something like brutally handsome or something, I can´t really remember) and he liek got a bit stunned I think, and then he said "Thanks..." and I got really embarrassed and kind of mumbled "Well, I just thought I´d tell you" and he just looks really stunned and say "Wow, thanks.. that was really really nice.." And I think I said bye, but I´m not sure... I just wanted to get out of the store, Oh GOD I felt terrible because I made a fool out of myself. [I´m 15 and he was mybe 23-25. People always take me for 18, but still!]

But when I started to think about I got more and more proud of myself for having the guts to tell him. How often do you really do that? I know I would be realy happy if someone said that to me. I think people should do more stuff like that, impulsive, maybe, but you get really happy yourself but doing things like that. It really can make a person happy and I think we are to afraid of things to be embarrassing. It´s only what you think is embarrassing that really is embarrassing.

Oops, I didn´t mean to write this much. What I wanted to write in the first place was:

1. Today I ate two soyaburgers. I´ve been a vegetetarian since the age of twelve, and one of them tasted really weird, it tasted MEAT, so I just threw it away and felt really bad, so I called my mum to ask her if we had any meatburgers in the fridge, and she said no, so then I felt a bit better. But I still feel like I actually ate meat. Uuuuuh!

2. When thinking about it, these are the two defining moments for me when it comes to music and the taste in music I have now, not counting the groups and artists I loves when I was 10 or 11 that is. I didn´t listen to very good music then.. Moving on: These are the two things that have affected me most (not in any special order)

1. When during a concert with Muse I got to play on Matt Bellamy´s guitar. Muse are my favourite favourite group after B&S, so it meant a lot to me. I´ve never, EVER, seen anyone who plays the guitar as well as Matt! He is incredible... I also got a cloth rose from Dom´s drum set and Matt´s waterglass. I still have it! Oh, yes, some purple stars from Matts pocket as well.

2. Hearing the first song ever with B&S: Mayfly. I got it on a mixtape from my sister who lives in England. She has just come home for christmas and made me that tape. I ran out and shouted "Is it a girl or a boy singing?" and she shouted back "Boy, silly!" And I kind of sighed happily because it was the most beautiful and amazing thing that I had ever heard, it was something new and really special. And I felt if it was a girl with a kind of.. um.. deep (not that you call Struans voice DEEP, but you get my point, right?) it wouldn´t be as good as if it was a boy with a very light and sweet voice ot would me absolutely perfect.. and it was. I´ve loved B&S since then :)

Thas enough for me, I´ve talked far too much now. 

I love you all,

Astrid xxx

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