Sinister: inadequate austrian sock suspension

[sarah beckett]

Dear Sinister,

  I'm having a bit of a bloody men bloody buses day. Last year at uni I met 
this guy..we'll call him 'g', which is actually what everyone called him 
because no-one attempted his real Austrian name...and he was lovely, if a 
little peculiar at times (shaving his legs, wearing things called sock 
suspenders which I'd never heard of before and which looked frankly 
ridiculous- apologies to any traditionalist listees).
But after about a week of going out with him he started criticising me. one 
day we went out for a walk and he put an expensive suit on, and sunglasses, 
and I laughed and said I felt like I should be wearing a dress, and he said, 
'actually that would be nice occasionally'...and then he started on about my 
trouser legs having the wrong circumference and my hats not fitting...these 
kinds of comments are easily overlooked when the person making them is 
generally a bit eccentric, but when I properly thought about them I didnt 
like it one bit and I went right off him.
Anyway, I've been complaining for ages that I can't find anyone here to fall 
in love with, or who will fall in love with me. And now, suddenly, after 
weeks in the wilderness, I am being persistently followed by someone I don't 
like that much, mainly because he says 'bad-boy' and 'hardcore' with 
startling frequency, I'm constantly tip-toeing round someone else who can't 
decide whether he's interested in talking to me or at me... and The Austrian 
is flying to England to convince me that we should rekindle our 
clothes-centric relationship.

On a happier note, aforementioned boy did give me a Joni Mitchell CD as a 
present- I'd never heard any before- and the songs have completely dominated 
my last week or so. Joni can be a very silly woman inasmuch as some of the 
lyrics are very contrived-'smog' rhymed with 'cog' on Woodstock is a very 
special moment- actually there are better and sillier examples but I cant 
remember them. But some of the songs are so beautiful and so uplifting, and 
you can tell she just did whatever she wanted. That kind of 
un-selfconsciousness is really inspiring. I think I listen to CDs in the 
same way I read books- that is, I listen to them over and over and over and 
then put them on the shelf and forget about them (a habit broken only by 
Belle and Sebastian and Take That). Someone once told me he repressed that 
instinct and only allowed himself one listen per week or whatever, which 
seems a strange mentality to me.

With love,
Sarah
x



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