Sinister: let me close my eyes and lie invisible, perhaps the clouds will pass through me
Lola Monnet
lolamonnet at xxx.com
Tue Jan 15 15:33:36 GMT 2002
hello.
so many amazing people, all so far away.
i like reading all of the stories of the romance affairs that you all seem
to have. i am happy to see that you all seem so happy together, although
sometimes i become a little bit jealous of you, i wish i can get the bravery
to also travel to so far away for a glimer of hope, as i can't even bring up
the courage to tell a boy that i like him. and now, he is with a girl, but
she is very beautiful, and so i am happy for him, in my mind, at least.
in my heart everytime they kiss it is like an arrow flying through. is there
an anti cupid that exists in order to use his arrows to tarnish broken
hearts?
maybe i should become more brave, or careless at least. in the past i always
had to make sure, to make sure that he is perfect for me, but i never do.
all i ever do is procrastinate and by the time i feel ready, when their
blemishs become their personalities, they would fly away, when they've found
the perfect girl, or, just disappear without a trace.
another year, but it doesn't mean much to me anymore. i don't mind being
celibate for another year, but maybe i should. i remember in a song, a girl
said "the best shield is to accept the pain, then what can really destroy
me". maybe she's right.
lola.
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