Sinister: time wounds all heels.

[richard john gillanders]

something including the word 'intolerance.'


don't try to read it too much.  or into it.  too much.

I trust you.

for to make it not lots and lots of fun to read. 
but/and without having made any promises.


--I'm certainly no more bohemian than I was.  and not
actually any more moravian.  this is all I'll say about anything like that.  I think I've decided.  unless I'm invited to.  or I'm able to deem it appropriate enough.




...AND YOU WILL KNOW US BY THE TRAIL OF THE NIGHT OF THE LIVING DEAD

the people.  they have moved here.  but they're different.  to how I had expected!  no, not different to.  but different!  haha.  people!  some of them anyway.  I heard there's one who will still come and who is still the same.  I don't doubt it an awful lot.  but I won't hold my breath: I would die.  I AM happy that people have moved though and I'm happy with the ones that have [they are very nice] and although I think I may still allow myself to be sad sometimes, well, it won't have to be around them [I try not to be a party-pooper] and I can still let myself get angry too but it's unlikely it'll be with them and I will talk no more of emotion.  ever.  today.



MAD MAX BYGRAVES

I went to see belle & sebastian too.  on a thursday. it was really, really a lot of good fun.  I think I really enjoyed it.  if I stop for a moment.  I got hugged beforehand as well.  I DO like hugs.  I guess I must just pretend that I might not.  but I don't pretend so much that I would make a sort of repulsed-looking face when faced with the prospect of ME GETTING HUGGED.  yeah.
I like hugs as much as any other: I am human too.

well, neil robertson.  isn't HE a NICE guy?  HEY.  I wouldn't say something like that if I didn't mean it; I say something like that since it really, really seems to be the case.  I don't expect any favours from him in the future.  nice fella.


caitlin pigface.  I mean TAILS.  and yet...hm...I'd always choose heads.  for simplicity.  and like...something else.  CAITLIN PIGTAILS: he's got him a movie.  he wants us to know.  [that was a while ago now but I don't care enough to not have typed it now].  he said to me that I looked serious a lot of the time.  this was at the concert.  and I think he said some nice things about me in the past.  I won't rake them up.  though.
it's funny that people say nice things to you and you
can only ever say things in return that are completely
interpretable as not-nice.  actually it isn't too funny, really.  and it isn't you, either.
I should get better at receiving compliments [IT'D MAKE MY DAY-TO-DAY LIFE A WHOLE LOT EASIER, I'll tell ya].  actually.  I think I want to get better at complimenting.  or complying.  or cementing.  or, BUBBA, people'll just think I'm rude.
I DO look serious sometimes.  a lot of the sometimes. 
I take enjoying myself very, very seriously.  play hard...play smart.  but it.  HAHA.  it isn't no!  HAHA.

juicy lucy had not included me in her people-that-were-there list from that concert a while ago.  she apologised to me too.  I waved a hand, like: "p'shaw."  like, y'know.  later at the bar she did a great underworld impression.  and I ain't talkin' no al capone.  I just sorta wisht lucy had included me then and that david moore had done an impression like hers.
but I'm thankful for small mercies.  +she remember'd me this time around.  but I WAS conspicuously absent from other people's people-being-out-together listings.  conspicuous only to myself, perhaps.  some people get upset about things like that.  I did type 'upest' at first.  freudian typo.  I, however, can't really get upset since: I only ever wanted mentioned by david moore anyway.

the carsmile did some hideously belated Reporting Back.  but. let's face it, at least he did some Reporting Back.  with it he said "LLPJ with Monica, as it should be ;)"  I could try to agree with that.  if only I had ever seen it suchly.  why, oh why do they never ever have monica join them onstage for glasgow gigs?  I swear...
especially when I'm drunk.  +sometimes I make blinded statements of non-truth.  usually about nothing
important.  simply situations.

I met a boy called michael since the concert too.  despite all his energeticness.  he seems genuinely nice.  I hate these people that are ingenuine in their niceness.  or in their unniceness.  well: he knows who is in control.  although he's pretending not to.  but we both know it's pretense.  and I don't mind that at all.  I'll say nothing of the post.  but.  AC/DC?  then. paranoid?  I had thought that was a black sabbath.  but wait a minute!  it actually wasn't michael grant!!  what WUZ I thinking?  something else.  it was paul healy!  thanks.  I know you think we're crazy.  but I think I know you think you're crazy too.  so.  okay.



CAT STEVENS ON A HOT TIN ROOF

and.  mark casarotto was in glasgow for a weekend.  there were lots for turning out for to see him on friday night too.  it was fun in a little room.  doesn't happen often enough.  like that.  I didn't say too many things to him but I only have myself to blame.  I wished we had been on the same football team too.  that way I coulda tried tussling wit' him.  without having much to lose.  I didn't hear him talking in that which most seem to agree to consider the most important/interesting topic of the day.  I musta been elsewhere pretending to listen about prosthetic BALLS [like, I did hear] and [not entirely associated] daniel's reasoning for the elimination of cancer.  but, I'm not sure.

shame no-one [not peter, I've learned] talked of the football from this weekend at any great length.  it was a magnificent show that those watching didn't really appreciate.  there'll be more football in glasgow soon too!  there is some football there already but.




germany back to australia.  the way it should be.  but for how long?  I don't suppose it matters really.  I don't even know where australia is.  and I'm not too sure where...whatever that other place is...is.

GEA missed out on that concert.  went to visit some victims of snowblindness or something instead.  charitable she is.  I will take care to enter a number for her sometime soon.  and she has even more pieces of metal than before.  I had thought that wouldn't
have been very possible but.  thinking about it: she
does seem to have some sort of magnetism about her.  she just has to watch what/who it is she's attracting.

+where's ian nicolson when you need him?  decorating.  it seems.  maybe I'll have an opportunity to see the fruits of his labour sometime.  I will talk not of his loins.  although, he may have been inspired by george square.  unfortunately orange doesn't go with
everything.  he needs his 'the seventh seal' back and
I miss him, if he's reading this: I'LL BE IN TOUCH AS
SOON AS I ACTUALLY AM.

squares.  once I was in a big ol' square somewhere!  and, like, I found myself on the phone to someone else and what they had said was "I'll send someone.  meet them under the famous clock."  and I, of course,
immediately thought of london.  but not because of a clock.  I think I was actually thinking of ondon.  you betcha.

of which to talk:
mister cook.  he wrote a top ten list I really liked a while ago that I thought maybe I wasn't going to have seen.  but I read it again lately and it wasn't how I recalled it.  there were still ten in the top.  I  don't know!  he professes some but it seems he ain't no professor.   not in his chosen field anyhow.  birthplace?  and he tells ME to close the door!  and I tell him: only if he gets off the table.

mandee light is coming for me finally.  the purpose of her trip wasn't so obvious.  let me reveal.  she is on her way in order to try to sign me up to star in a picture entitled 'mister wright: the early years.'  no, I'm not sure.  I haven't seen the screenplay yet.  but SERIOUSLY.  not on her way for me.  not actually.  but.  to near me.  I'm excited by her decision not to just stay at where she's going but to go to another place where we are.  where I am too.  she might even shake my hand.  or her fist.
I wish she could have had a travelling companion from
near her origin as well.  but.  ALAS.
[I read SOMETHING ELSE from before too that made me have a reason to wish I WAS a girl].
[but, HEE-HEE, come to think about it: I'm quite glad
I'm not!!]. <-I don't even know.

dimitra's coming too.  AGAIN.  she already has come?  she's here now?  AGAIN.  well, it's not like I'm bored or anything.  well, not REALLY.  [you needn't ask what [any of] this means as it obviously doesn't mean anything at all].

SEE YOU SOON DIMITRA! XXXXXXX




and this is where it just breaks down [sorry]:


I ain't got the moves

again I'll indulge myself in not minding.  but sometimes I really think I could do better with having the moves.  and two stories.



perceived

I wish I could be/feel as big and clever as I used to
be/do.
do/be.
although.  some people say I have gotten bigger.
and I'm beginning to doubt.
that I'm not.  bigger.  or.
that I'm nought.

I have no reason to lie.

even if I switched that around a bit.  I still have no reason.

do-be-do.

we can work out all the inversely-proportional relationships we like but will we really discover anything new??  yes: mathematics is only of use when you're able to use it properly.  [this is what I hinted at above but not clearly enough].



it'll be saturday soon.  all of you LOT who are in glasgow or can get to glasgow should either stay there or go there and attend the winchester club at woodside social club and allow yourself to listen to and even see aerospace [they ARE swedish] and christopher leonard [hehe, he ain't] as they are playing live music and then, afterwards, you can let yourself listen to [and even dance with, if that's your bag] some nicely selected recordings.  I'll definitely be going as the people who run it seem to like destiny's child even more than I do.  maybe twice as much.  SO!


it seems this is now just a list.  and it shouldn't be.

I mean this, though.



received

neuralgia just ain't what it used to be.

I wanted to type something about choice here but it's too similar to something I already typed.


all of this has no basis!  I'm completely unsure of my basis.  and only rather unsure of my bases.  except when sarah's flatmate's room's free.


thanks to lucy and to gavin for some stolen lines.



deceived

time has passed.  time is past.  UGH.

something else with 'intolerance.'  and then 'even if it kills me.'

all of this-1.52%.  <-the actual figure.  [not sure].

loved,
richard.




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