Sinister: swimming is one solution but i don't like the look of the water

[Thomas Henderson]

hello

   i hope will has some sort of copyright/ royalties
gig on the go, i think he's already won the prize for
best analogy of the year. 
      
     i feel shitty, i started this summer job the
other week and it's awful, aparently i'm being
arrogant, at least according to my (soon to be ex)
girlfriend. according to her i think the job is below
me, which i don't. i just hate it because i can't get
no uhu (job) satisfaction. sorry but i don't ask for
much do i? i prefer working with the public, ,at least
then you have a chance to brighten up someones day
just a little. 
     
  so yes she's going to finish with me because i can't
hold down a job. some of you may find this rwally
ironic (re: my previous girlfriend posts) but last
weekend something special hapened, for the first time
in ten months we similtaneously loved each other with
all of our hearts, which is wuite an achievement
really. but then it all went funny the other morning,
we woke up and while she got ready and i lay in bed i
simply said "i don't want to go to work tonight, i
hate that place" then she fell out with me. 

       today she emailed me to say she supposed it was
over. then she mentioned the money again. although
this is not quite the top five things which laura may
(and did) tell gill about rob in high fidelity it's
close especially this money issue. she said i didn't
need to give her the money back as long as i just left
her alone. she reckons that if i can't stay in a job
that i despise then i have no longevity in anything,
especially in a relationship.

      i've not really been bad to her ever, i try my
best. if she goes then i may go take a dip in the sea.
i can't handle both these things at once. the job
thing has completely drained me and made me feel awful
anyway and now i need to deal with my love. i said to
her earlier i had toothache, i asked her then if she
was ending it, i figured if i was taking painkillers i
may as well find out how many i needed to take. no
amount of painkillers could stop the pain of her
leaving. i hope she doesn't.

     the toothache is bad, i had this root canal done
about 18 months ago and the dentist made a complete
and utter c*nt of it, amongst other things. i'm glad
i'm a poor student and didn't need to pay for it, if
i'd paid for it i'd be even more unhappy.   

     i could just tell her to piss off i suppose and
use the money i was going to give her to pay off my
debt to come through to embra this weekend for the
picnic. but no. i shouldnt. sorry. 

     i noticed it's been a little quiet recently,
except for the people who have returned after long
absences, to them welcome back. to everyone else i
suppose you'll all start posting again in the fear
that i might again soon. so shoutouts to brian and
gordon and lucy and idles and gail and will and
everyone else except gav for not respecting my choice
to have gareth gates inspired hair now and again. i
saw two sini-folk in superdrug on sauchiehall street
last friday,  i know i met you before but didn't
really speak to you at the picnics but hiya anyway.

   luv thomas x.

ps: all the spelling and grammar mistakes were
deliberate so shut it, right?!!?!
    

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