Sinister: I might love anyone

[Matilda Liljedahl]

Hey you out there in the cold


So maybe I’m not heartless. Maybe I was wrong when I felt I didn’t love 
anyone. This week I loved my family. I’ve been home alone for two weeks now 
and I actually miss them. It would be better to love them when they’re home 
than loving them when they’re gone, but still, this is a step forward. And 
this week I realised I’m in love (at least most of the time). I’m afraid 
this is going to break my heart rather than making me happy. But I prefer 
being broken hearted than not feeling a thing (at least I think so, I’m not 
perfectly sure).

It took me this long to realise I’ll miss Isobel’s part in Belle and 
Sebastian (must have been some kind of shock-phase). I really like the songs 
she’s singing and now I’m going to mix Gentle waves with Belle and Sebastian 
but it’s not going to be the same. Besides she was the only member I could 
remember the full name of (yes, I know how horrible that is but I’m really, 
really bad at names).

Storytelling is now on cinema in Sweden. I don’t know if I should see it now 
or wait until it comes to video. From what I’ve heard the movie is not that 
good. Anyone who’s seen it is welcome to give me an advice in this difficult 
choice I’m facing.

I’ve been visiting second hand record shops frequently the last time. And I 
saw a guy who was buying Storytelling 2nd hand. I was deeply shocked. How 
could that happen? Soon I realised there were a lot of reasons that could 
have cause this occurrence.
1 Some poor B&S fan had bought Storytelling for her/his last money and then 
acccidently dropped it on the street. Another person, without any 
conscience, found it and sold it to earn some money.
2 Some poor B&S fan had her/his birthday the day after the release of the 
record and got, not one, but two records from friends and family who had 
overestimated her/his admiration of B&S.
3 Some poor B&S fan died recently and her/his relatives sold all her/his 
records because they couldn’t bear the pain of being reminded of the dead 
person everytime they saw the records she/he had loved. I found Tigermilk in 
the same shop, which sadly supports this theory.

I was also lucky to find The Boy With The Arab Strap to a very nice price 
and I bought it because (aaaaaaaaargh here’s the truth) I didn’t have it and 
I’ve never had it. But wait, I can explain. I never buy all the records of 
one group at the same time. Every time I’ve bought a new Belle and Sebastian 
I’ve been happy every night and day for at least 3 weeks. I want to spread 
this feeling over time so I can be happy now and then and not only one time. 
Sometimes I’m happy even if I haven’t bought a good record recently, it 
happens :) But anyway this is my record-buying-strategy and since I 
discovered B&S pretty late it took me this long. Anyway this buying of The 
Boy With The Arab Strap made me as happy as always. I’m now more convinced 
than ever of how much I love Belle and Sebastian. They are the kind of band 
that can make me feel right when things are wrong. I even like to listen to 
the songs that I wouldn’t have liked very much if someone else was doing 
them, because I’m stuck to that feeling they give me.

Now I really have to eat some pancakes or something will go wrong, terribly 
wrong./ Bye




_________________________________________________________________
Med MSN Foto kan du enkelt dela med dig av dina fotografier och beställa 
kopior: http://photos.msn.se

+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+
        +---+  Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list  +---+
     To send to the list mail sinister at missprint.org. To unsubscribe
     send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to
     majordomo at missprint.org.  WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister
 +-+       "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper           +-+
 +-+  "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+
 +-+    "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000     +-+
 +-+  "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000  +-+
 +-+  "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001   +-+
 +-+               Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa                 +-+
 +-+               Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut!                +-+
+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+