Sinister: portable kisses

[Rachel Playforth]

"Why does it seem to me that the poets and teenagers are the protectors
and sustainers of the possibilities of kisses?"
- tess gallagher

i'm all over the place this morning.  this may be because i've been
writing, something to which i've become unaccustomed.  it's hard, i now
remember, to bring my mind down (or up? or out?) from trying to get a
grip on tiny, exact things like words and return to making normal,
inexact conversation and doing filing.

i've also been reading the new Careless Talk (ha, i just typed 'carless'
by mistake - the journal for pedestrians?) which is growing on me. 
there is certainly a healthy dose of passion in there.  although matt
brought it home from work saying 'here you go, fresh from the sweaty paw
of everett true himself' which did put me off slightly.  one belle &
sebastian related comment to report so far, from an interview with
aerogramme (i paraphrase slightly): 'arab strap and us mix harshness
with our emotion.  you can't be too sensitive in glasgow or you get
twatted.  that's why you never see belle and sebastian drinking in the
city centre.'  something like that anyway.

the star-crossed ex-lovers are still making me sad.  perhaps also
reminding me unpleasantly of my own messy break-up with the boy in
question four years ago.  it's funny, however much you forget and move
on, there are still little grains of every painful experience left
behind deep in your subconscious.

i can't wait to see b&s in brixton and reach that sublime medium between
primal rock n roll euphoria and tearful appreciation of beauty.  that
should sort me out.

oh, can i just have a wee little boast (i really feel like a conceited
twat saying this but it has improved my self-esteem so much that i have
to share): i've been shortlisted for an eric gregory award, which is
pretty much THE last word in prizes if your a poet under 30.  so far the
shortlist is 17 (out of 107 entries) so even if i get no further i might
at least stop thinking that i ought to give up and become a bricklayer.


"There are thousands of types of people in the world: The type that
divides the world up into two types of people, and the thousands of
other types." - the onion

luv archel xxx

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