Sinister: you know i love you

[elizabeth trawick]

Hi all.

It's getting to be that time of the morning where every time i move my head 
too fast things get blurred and it takes a while for my eyes to focus again. 
  Also I've noticed that at times like this it's hard for me to have good 
coordination, as well as clear thinking...

But ah, I have Belle and Sebastian and they are keeping me sane for the time 
being.

In all honesty, I wish I could've just packed up and been off to New York to 
see the band.  That would've been absolutely wonderful...  I'm sad to have 
missed it.

Someone asked me tonight if I ever felt as if I wasn't good enough and/or 
that wonder why people like me?  I answered yes, of course, as most people I 
think would.  Really, though, I think I only wonder why certain people like 
me...  I wonder, mostly, why I like -them-.

I guess that sounds pretty lame.  It seems like the world around me is 
unfolding.  I'm finding out more and more people I know have cancer or a 
tumor...  Terminal or not, it's a very scary situation and it's hit close to 
home twice but I was too young to realise what was really happening.  But 
now I know and it's hitting me really hard...  What can you do for comfort 
in these situations?  How do you comfort the friend?

On the other hand, there's boys.  I think that word 'boy' in the word 'boys' 
says it all.

Okay, now I really am getting extremely deliriously tired.

Pardon my seemingly dull/pointless post.  My excuse is that I am very tired. 
  Please forgive me.

xox
Elizabeth

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