Sinister: fuzzy

[Ruth Allan]

oh thanks to rachel, I know exactly how she feels in that what was once a complete addiction in my life, not just to b&s but to suede and... oh my life... U2 and sidi bou said... arg... yes, and tiny songs like cornershops first ep meant everything to me, is no longer so powerful. I imagine its cos I have less cash and more bills and am 27 and contemplating what nursery to send the baby to, but actually its more cos like she says the hole in my life isnt so big anymore - and part of me feels guilty that thats the case. I hope its not just growing up in some ways, and I hope that music might take on something like that importance again. 
I still listen to music ALL day and waste the other parts discussing the merits of frontmen ( can it be reasonable to know more about damon alburn's opinions than your own?) and writing rubbish like this ;
Dear Catastrophe Waitress  Belle and Sebastian (Rough Trade) 
Know Belle and Sebastian's records and you'll understand what it is to hold your breathe until the album has a chance to weave it's way into your soul and you can sing nothing but 'Judy and The Dream of Horses'... making one appear highly fey. But with Dear Catastrophe Waitress, Belle and Sebastian have returned for their fifth proper album with an accessible avalanche of, well, catchy pop. From the folk frippery of tracks like 'Piazza, New York Catcher' to showtune bugling 'You Don't Send Me' it's all a bit different from the downbeat melancholia of Storytelling. Even if it doesn't grab you on arrival, know that in three months you'll have it on permanent rotation, and this time around, sing it loud, sing it proud - there is not a mention of horses in earshot. 9/10  - sounds a bit 'q' in retrospect... 
But it's just not my whole soul anymore. Boo. for me thats what comes from being split in two, but also from going out with people... whereas in the olden days I kind of whent out with brett and bernard from suede in my head, which meant that the boy on the bus wasnt quite so essential. humpf. gripping.. 
has anyone seen qee bears? or italian for beginners? or joe cairns from wigan? 

ruthxx 


-----Original Message-----
From: Rachel Playforth [mailto:R.Playforth at xxx.uk]
Sent: 01 October 2003 10:31
To: Sinister Mailing List
Subject: Sinister: fuzzy



I don't know how I feel about the new album. Not that I've heard it, I just 
mean how I feel about the prospect. I don't think I feel anything. I just 
think: there's an album coming out.

I don't have it in me to be a fan any more. Of anything. I still have music 
that I love to listen to; Buck 65 makes me marvel, Busted make me grin, 
Camera Obscura make me smile and cry, Go Betweens make me warm and fuzzy, 
Beyonce makes me shake my booty, etc etc. And Belle & Sebastian still do 
some of the things they always do.

But they don't creep into an empty space in my head and live there any 
more, because that space isn't there. Nobody else's words or lyrics fit my 
life perfectly now, because I've worked out my own words (less eloquent 
though they may be). I can still be moved by music but I can't be defined 
by it. I can't turn to Stuart Murdoch to solve a problem, but I don't 
really need to.

There's a trend, in my life as well as in some of my friends', to shift 
away from the 'meaningful' music I loved as a teenager - Radiohead and 
Smashing Pumpkins and REM, and yes, B&S - and towards frothy chart pop. I 
thought for a while that this was just because I've grown up and I'm not 
such a repellent little snob. But thinking about it, it's also because some 
'meaningful' music is only meaningful when you haven't got a meaning of 
your own yet. Once life has solidified around you a bit, even 10 minutes of 
intense wailing and verbiage doesn't quite cover all the bases. Better to 
leap around to S Club 8 and mentally stave off impending death than pretend 
that Coldplay feel your pain.

And that's why gigs and albums and DVDs by Belle & Sebastian are just gigs 
and albums and DVDs to me now.

I feel like a traitor, but then again B&S have always been more than the 
sum of their indie parts, just by virtue of indirectly causing Sinister and 
all its seismic interpersonal happenings. By which I mean to say: I 
couldn't have met half the people that give my daily life its sparkle were 
it not for Belle & Sebastian. That's no mean feat.

So of course I'll buy the album and shell out for a ticket to see them in 
Brighton - finally! - and follow their fortunes with extra fondness, even 
if I won't spend any more time musing on the track order and the new 
direction and the lyrical conundrums that I would for anyone else.

Hope you're all well and ready to embrace autumn (or spring). New seasons 
seem either to bring very good or very bad things, but nothing ever stands 
still. I'm going to be a student again next week, which is doing all kinds 
of scary things to my sense of identity. Maybe I *will* return to angsty 
music after all...

Oh, and Glasgow lot - I'm hitting your city in two weeks time. It's been 
far too long, and I can't wait :)

love Archel xxx

PS. I refuse to believe that Maddieminx isn't still reading on the quiet, 
so: yo! Maddie! check your email!

PPS. Very very happy birthdays to Stacey dahling and Laura Llew, two of the 
presiding spirits of Sinister and both deserving of gifts and adulation to 
the max!

PPPS. Extra hugs to Ken Chu.

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