Sinister: i wish i could turn and just walk away, but i can't do it, no way.

[miss lou]

hello sinister.

it seems so strange posting now. the list seems so
quiet, and i feel strange knowing i'm going against
list protocall by mentioning the list in a post to the
list.

am i so old? have i been around so long?

a girl 'delurked.' afraid to be a young belle and
sebastian fan, afraid to meet the other sinisters. 

i remember that feeling. i remember joining and
huddling behind a public computer because no one else
in the room would know upon what i had stumbled, even
as i was afraid i wasn't good enough for this thing i
could only imagine.

weird how it does that to you.

you are cool enough, i say to the lurker. do not be
afraid of that which you have never seen. you have no
reason to be.

look at me and my reverent tones. 

i am too high and mighty.

***

i had my birthday last week.

22.

the years can hardly cath up, i guess. and i am
certainly playing catch up, trying desparately to get
my ducks in a row so i can say i am living, etc.

the thing about ducks, though, is that they don't fly
in rows, really. they fly in v's. like arrows, they
always point in a direction opposite from the one i am
taking.


xo.lou.

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