January 2001 - Sinister - missprint.org

Sinister: pepto
by keith mclachlan 14 Jan '01

14 Jan '01

photo jenny have several releases, actually, and they are incredibly irritating to my ears. most recent one a single on elefant. japanese girl singers all tend to coo emotionless tales of adolescence in broken english but photo jenny's girl(though the guy singer is not so bad) tops them all as she squeaks in a range audible through most of the higher end of the acoustic spectrum. piercing. cranes-like skin crawling. jpop people probably think they are gods and really the first cassette is not so bad, they don't sound anything like belle and sebastian except for having acoustic guitars in most of their songs. we, myself and someone lovelier, went to london over christmas, the weather was abominable and really i think we midwesterners are far too polite as everyone there just seemed intent on bowling us over and not caring one bit about it. still we had a lovely time but for the hardwood floors of our hostel that made sleeping quite the chore but then come to think of it --who needs sleep on vacation? i think the new modesty blaise album is the album the boo radleys were trying to make when they mistakenly ended up with kingsize. oh and that new brave captain record is something like an abortion, dreadful. but modesty blaise is beautiful. is he edwyn collins' brother? keith m __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Get email at your own domain with Yahoo! Mail. http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: bono crushing, heh heh heh
by Amy Jackson 14 Jan '01

14 Jan '01

i'm back in glasgow. it's not as i expected it to be. normally i have the bestest time ever here, but my friends from the halls of residence have decided they don't want to be my friends anymore and are being really mokeish to me. like not telling me when or where we are going out, or then we go out and they "accidentally" disappear on me and leave me to walk home on my own. so i had a bit of a cry last night and phoned up my bunch of other, much cooler and nicer friends and i decided i might go to liverpool for a few days. only i can't really afford it. "elevation" by U2 is on in easy everything. this is gonna sound dead stupid but this is such a sexy song! i think i just think this cos when i was 9 i had the biggest crush on Bono. bu no one knows that so ssh! ;) saw mr murdoch on friday, all dressed in black. much swooning took place, oh yes. oh dear, i've run out of credit, gotta dash, amy xx _________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Cigarettes burning too quickly for comfort.
by Ruvi Simmons 14 Jan '01

14 Jan '01

In an effort to write a little it less this time, I am only going to give myself the time it takes to smoke a cigarette in which to complete this...well, I quail to think of a suitable name for it. Screed? I shouldn't really be smoking since I am still recovering from the flu, but it is proving impossible to restrain myself. Indeed, the softness of my willpower often gives me cause to lament. But anyway, enough of that, I am finally feeling myself convalescing after several dreary, depressing days, and so I shall shun such negative thoughts. Yesterday I was driving back to London, or rather, being driven back since I can't drive, and the sky was overcast with thick, billowing cloud. However, as we were whizzing past Hatfield, the clouds began to break and golden shards of sunlight started to stream down, warming the cold, barren fields. It felt, well, it felt like nature was trying to tell me something, or at least that there was something I could learn from it if I chose to. Nights and winters may seem long when one is immersed in them, but they come and go. The fields that are now unploughed and in a deathly slumber will, soon enough, begin to come back to life, and become the home of growth and rebirth. So, what I learnt, obvious as it may seem and difficult as it may be to bear in mind the next time night descends, is optimism. Optimism and energy is what is needed to make the most of a life that is all too short as is. My cigarette has already run out, but I'm not feeling too inclined to stop myself just yet. I'm aware of the woeful scarcity of any mention of Belle and Sebastian yet again, but I don't really have much to say about them. I would be listening to them, but I can't be bothered to plug in my headphones. If I could, however, I would put on Fold Your Hands Child etc. etc., which I've decided, having spoken to people about it, is a criminally underrated and maligned album. Since instead of writing this I should really be doing some reading, I shall try and exercise just a little discipline. I can't really remember any good jokes to end with, so instead how about a lovely quote? "Down with wisdom! Forget everything I have said. Let us be neither prudish nor prudent. I drink to merriment. Let us be merry and end our course on law with folly and with food...How splendid is creation, how filled with gaiety, the world glittering like a gem in benefaction of summer...My soul flies out to virgin forests and savannahs. Everything is beautiful. The flies swarm in the sunlight and the humming-bird is born in the sun. Kiss me, Fantine." - Victor Hugo. There. Over-long and superfluous it may be, but I can't help thinking that, in some ways, it is relevant. Ruvi. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: lifes short and hard like a body building elf
by sweetie something 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

sinister how art we all this (not very nice at all) weather?? me well, me i just am how did everyone enjoy the festive season then?? i hope we all had a wonderful time seems jenowl did anyway! you know talking about new year and good times oh last year twas gid :) although it did result in a few drunken posts well at least 1 yeah i went to stirling ANYWAY this one guy i went out with, douglas would luv to have seen him again found out TODAY from a friend that i went with that he had wanted to see me again and had tried to give me his number (i was busy...eh...busy?) and he gave it to her to give to me and she told me today how annoyed am i at that Š:| mine, well mines was pretty god damn boring on xmas day it was just marshmellow, my mum and me coz my sisters went to my faithers i god pissed out of sheer boredom alone sad saad saaad :/ new year i was invited to a party but no i stayed home i kinda had to tho marshmellow and me maw were staying in so were my sisters (not that i particularly want to spend anymore time than is absolutely necessary with the vengabitch) and my b/f was coming over too (and a bottle of southern comfort later he decides we should have a talk and clear the air some more <things werent going to great> and he tells me the secret he has been keeping from me-when it was still an open relationship he went out drinking with keith *ssssssss* and slept with some other lassie) but i was shattered and half asleep by the bells jenowl talked about the secc carnival i went last nite (friday nite) with my friend for her b/day it was ok i had candyfloss :) i didnt win anything. not that i tried oh well. my younger sister, ernicle, has a magic carpet apparantly strange? i thought so. i hate school i really do i hate everything about it especially virtually all of the other pupils bastards bastards bastards its a mutual thing im sure gigs offspring on wed dougie maclean feb 1st deftones- march muse- may anyone out there fancy going to see grandaddy?? or king adora?? or JJ72?? coz i av no one to go with :( if, of course, i can get tickets yeah, i went to a b&s djset at edinburgh uni a few mths ago with our own dear narrow wizard, owen but i am pretty sure i missed the b&s dj set coz i only saw 1or 2 of the sets and spent the rest of the nite talking to my mate stuart that invited us altough i did spot a b&s t shirt his name was nico he wasnt sinister i finally have a job in evans in falkirk its money im still skint and in debt though what can i say im a compulsive spender :) actually a fair bit of my money has gone on cheap cds and buying the 2 crow albums for my b/f, that cost almost £30! and debt, of course anyway yeah anyway best be off "the twee-est fucker of them all" LOL! your friend always sweetie xox _________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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by Ava Arsaga 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

Well johnjohn, all i can say is happy birthday ... ill be making the same actions in october...a bit of a long time from now...I'm trying to think of a suave way of saying that you seems like an amazing person...i guess that will do...lentil soup in a flask eh? Thats the best...but only if you have some pieces of cheese bread for dipping...I just felt like saying hello though...and hello to the rest of the list. Not much has been going on in my region of the world...i went to work this morning and im sure i aggrevated the cooking staff by playing fox in the snow on repeat and then the same with my modest mouse cd until they had to ask me to change it...oh well though...it was worth it. my life seems rather dormant right now i suppose that i wont bother everyone with it...you're welcome. I look forward to hearing from everyone again soon.... Take Care, Ava _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Photo Jenny (the band)
by Andrew CHurchman 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

hi everyone, So, last night I did a little record shopping. Picked up Libraness (ash bowie of polvo), the Black Dice (actual recorded chaos! an insane band), an old Trumans Water 7" and.... a split single with the All Girl Sumer Fun Band and a band called Photo Jenny. I was already gonna buy it because, as everyone knows, the AGSFB rules the world but, the fact that a band was called Photo Jenny was enough to buy it too. They're a boy/girl duo from Japan and are'nt that bad. I thought maybe some of you sinistereens would like to know about them or maybe already have heard of them. Anyway, it's on Lil' Red Wagon records and deffinately worth checking out. In other news: Aden is going on tour soon, and all of you USA sinistereens MUST go see them if they come to your town. they are wonderful. OK, that's it for now. if anyone is into any of the above bands that i've mentioned feel free to e-mail me and talk music. bye. -- andrew __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Get email at your own domain with Yahoo! Mail. http://personal.mail.yahoo.com/ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: crying & idleness & stuff......
by John Maxwell 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

dear sinister, well, i feel as if there is this void in me, smothering me in idleness. but i am not too sure if i don't like it or not.. sometimes it can take a turn for the worse, where you don't want to do anything but cry, or even if you want to you physically can't because your sadness takes every drop of life from you. or there is other times, like just now, where you just want to sit back and relax on a deck-chair with a hat shielding your eyes from the sun and smiling to yourself. i would do this, if it wasn't for the rather cold conditions outside. the sun is shining on the loch, and has been for most of this year, because there hasn't been any clouds covering the skies up here for quite a while. so i am content with a cup of tea in my hands, staring out the window and down onto the water. i tend to sigh quite a lot during these times too, at the thought of how all this amazing scenery can never be shared with someone else.. well, my birthday is on friday, making me big & 16. i'll be not-so-ickle , but ickle enough to still enjoy being wee & young & innocent. my father will probably take me round to my darling sister's house for the evening, which means i won't be able to do anything else to celebrate. which doesn't bother me at all; families are grate and they shouldn't be taken for granted, especially after divorce tears it apart and complicates things with all its 'why can't things be just as they were before?' anguish & confusion. remorse too, thinking that you could have tried better to make your parents love each other more.. to celebrate being 16, i think i'll take a long walk up a hill on saturday. just me, my warmest clothes, and a flask of lentil soup. in my opinion, nothing is comparable to the sound of nothing but the breeze on the trees and watching a wee burn trickling down the slope. there is always one thing i feel when i wander through the countryside is that you never feel as if you are getting the true beauty that can be offered. like there's always this little bitty more smashingness that given to us. like how you always want your wedding day to be the most complete day ever, but when you go to other weddings there is always a certain something missing. in david eddings' belgariad, there is the complete wedding, where you can imagine the beautiful music being played and the orb shining, and how i've cried more at that book than at any real wedding.. *sniff* city dwellers might get to see all the cool people from all the grate bands, but at this moment i couldn't care less because i have the most beautiful view outside. johnjohn x oh,i think i'll add the sun is already starting to set, leaving an faint yellowey/orange band across the whole horizon.. *sigh* _______________________________________________________________________ FSmail - Get your free web-based email from Freeserve: www.fsmail.net +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister:Another one of lifes great mysteries unravelled...
by Sunset . 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

A tale from my dim and distant past... boxing day 2000... I couldn't move. I stared hopefully at the TV remote control but it was being stubborn and refused to jump willingly into my hand. My sister was sprawled on the settee next to me. I feared we might never move again...To die of boredom whilst surrounded by new CDs and videos. Surely there must be a moral in that somewhere? My sister suddenly suprised me, jumping to her feet heading towards a pile of CDs. After careful choice the sounds of Madonna's "Music" filled the room. Maybe if I hadn't been quite as much of a lead weight I would have protested slightly. Instead I said: "I didn't know you like Madonna?" It was true I didn't. In the whole 20 years of knowing her I had been clueless to this fact. An aspect of her personality I had been completely unaware of. And I am intrigued by people's choice in music. How can some people have such good taste while others, well, they like spice girls and stuff... One night, amidst this very same debate a friend took the trouble of telling me what great taste in music he had. "You can't deny it I have excellent taste in music, I really have..." He was more than slightly drunk and suspect blushed somewhat the next day. In his defence, and in my opinion at least, I would have to say he is probably right... he does have good taste in music... This opinion would be undoubtedly not shared be two girls whose conversation I happened to overhear minding my own business walking down the street. "Oh they like stupid music, err.. like Belle and Sebastian..." How could they be so wrong? But that's the thing, certain peoples idea of "excellent taste in music" is others idea of "stupid". Musical taste has the ability to surprise if nothing else... Anyway back to my sister. She looks thoughtful frowning slightly. I wait for her to answer. In due course she does "Oh everybody likes Madonna" How could I doubt her? She did say it so matter of factly... I questioned myself. Did I like Madonna? I didn't think I did particularly. But maybe this was the secret I had been missing out on all of these years. Whilst I was congratulating myself for liking good music the rest of the world was feeling smug because they knew the secret that holds society together. I understand why I have always felt like an outsider. Someone forgot to tell me this earth shattering fact. Maybe it was my parents who when teaching me to, look both ways when crossing the road and wash my hands before I eat, completely forgot to mention it "Oh yes and as for music well that's one secret that even we don't understand. Here it is anyway, remember it, it will stand you in good stead late on in life." Or maybe it was just something I should have learnt at school. In the fortnight I had my tonsils taken out perhaps. My sister still has tonsils so that is a genuine possibility. My sister continued to sprawl on the settee... now humming a little. She doesn't even realise what she has just said. My confidence is shattered, concepts of musical taste shredded, I resign myself to becoming a complete member of the club... I too now know the secret... "Everybody likes Madonna..." _________________________________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free E-mail from MSN Hotmail at http://www.hotmail.com. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Vaults in the pole
by Kenneth P Y Chu 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

Hello, There has been quite a few e-mails, some quite good, some quite bad, here is one which is quite bad now. Exam beckons and I'm dossing, this is not really the cleverest of ideas, but it's quite a fun one. Yeah, I am back in University now woohoo, or not, just before I went back home for Christmas I remember that the uni was really stressing me out and depressing me. It seems to be okay so far tho, which is good, let's hope that it's going to stay that way for a while. I hate it, but I'm falling into the exams blackhole again, it really sucks you know. My sleeping schedule has gone wrong, I try to do revision at night and then I fall asleep at the ever so unhealthy 6am and then waking up in the afternoons which is horrible cos I'm always missing the best part of the day, actually I'm just missing the day cos days come short in winter it gets dark around 4pm, and I am now continually and probably perpetually tired. You can tell that I'm tired because I only say use silly words like "perpetually" when I'm tired cos I don't know what it means. Still nothing some Red Bull cannot fix. Hmmmm bras and how to do 'em, I guess it must come down to luck rather than skills at the end of the day for first timers, cos you won't really have done it before... unless you have been practicing before hand on your own, or bribed your sister to let you practice undressing girls on her or maybe you've looked up instructions on the Internet. As for being short, it is true that it does makes you very cute (flutters eyelids) but it doesn't mean that you'll pull (sob), I guess girls don't feel that being unequivocally better at chicken limbo than tall boys is a good enough reason for a snog. Girls are odd like that, but I still fancy them.. humph. Exams suck, probably with a straw or even a vacuum cleaner. The holidays has been so much fun, it was especially grate to see lots of sinisters again. Hopefully Sinister is for life and not just for New Year, cos it is afterall where we live. Body clocks and Red Bulls for all of you Ken ====================================================================== Fox in the snow, where do you go, to find something you could eat cos the word out on the street is you are starving. - Belle & Sebastian +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "peculiarly deranged fanbase" "frighteningly named +-+ +-+ Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: flushed from the bathroom of your heart, rant number 5 and a half.
by IsabelLark＠aol.com 13 Jan '01

13 Jan '01

Jenowl referenced this as a diary or something...I liked that. Though I suspect that some people don't. I am going to rant on and I may not mention belle and sebastian once...though i am listening to LLPJ right now. (how about that, i mentioned them twice already.) Well, anyway, yesterday was my birthday. I went to work...received some great gifts so that was fine, but then i went for my annual birthday GNO (girls night out) and it was somewhere between places that i just got the most hopeless feeling in my stomach. It started when we were at this pub and I went to the girls room...There was one open stall, so I took it. I rather hurriedly lifted my skirt and pulled down my tights to tinkle when i look down to see this turd floating around in the toilet with a single piece of toilet paper. which was rather shocking cause all the chicks are so dainty in this joint. if you are totally disgusted, then you know how i must have felt...i am only crass enough to repeat it. so there i was peeing and gagging....so i stop midstream and debate on what to do...here i am...its my birthday...and i am hovering (because i only sit at home) over a freaking latrine (sp) with a nasty poopie. so i finished peeing anyway...and i tried to apply it parrably somehow...maybe i was subconsciously telling myself that when things get shitty i will still get through (peeing.) Who the hell did that? I couldn't help looking everyone in the eyes with an "i know what you did in the middle stall stare" glare. Here all of these gorgeous girls all trying to look more gorgeous than the next and one of them dumped a load in the john and didn't even properly dispose of it nor did she wipe her ass well enough in my opinion. phonies everywhere, i am totally convinced now. It was my fucking birthday...sheesh. And if you have begun to know me at all...you know that something like that could just send me over the deep end. but you know...you don't exactly want to go back to the table and start blabbing on about your new realizations and how they came about..so instead i just took it all in and it ruined my evening. then this girl that tagged along was asking repeatedly why boys hurt girls....(cheating, etc.) and so I told her what I thought "it is easier to seek forgiveness than permission" i said, but she didn't buy it as a likely enough excuse...and i am in no position to sell it so i gave up on her quickly (she may have been the middle stall culprit even, as she kept freshining up her lipstick right at the table. I had no choice but to suspect her...she knew what she did in there and probably didn't want to go back to the scene of the crime...and here i am thinking that she has gone poo poo and hardly taken the time to wipe the remains, but god damn her lipstick looks great.) she will continue to be hurt. some people like to be the victim you know...and some people just like to victimize (sp) so in the end its all about balance. the real balance is knowing which person you are and not bitching about it constantly...though in the chance that its genuinely lovely then thats just of the harold and maude persuasion and not intended for real life anyway. i decided last night that the world could be made up of two types of people...there are those that need for a movie to be believable and those that don't. so in the end, we ran into my friend scott and i ditched my girlfriends...well, they wanted to go dancing and i didn't. scott is wonderful...he never gossips or anything. i love that. he bought me birthday drinks until i nearly passed out. and then brought me home where i got horribly emotional with tears and started throwing up. he just wet a cloth and kept my hair brushed back. i suspect thats about as good as good gets. so in the end i pass out...and come to this morning in my bed with a bucket beside me. i come downstairs and there is Scott sleeping on the sofa. and i wondered for a while how come I hadn't seen it before. this wonderful boy, that treats me so well...gets all my jokes and likes the same music, he is even hot looking. staying at my place...not being dirty about it either. just putting me to bed and sleeping on my sofa. and he could have easily taken advantage of the situation, but he didn't...and i would have slept with him too, but he didn't even try. why hadn't i seen it in him before. so i take the day off from work and so does he and we had a wonderful day. tonight we had a total G rated date...no liquor, no beer...just dinner and a 3-D movie. i think we are two people that don't need the movie to be believable just enjoyable. could i be falling in la la la love? sigh. +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the undead Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. 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