December 2001 - Sinister

Sinister: to tell someone all the truth before it Kens Chu
by Rachel fruitloop 25 Dec '01

25 Dec '01

Hello Sinister! I suppose I shall start off by wishing everyone a Merry Christmas, as it is nearly 2 am on Christmas morning as I write this... The cats have had some catnip and the one we call the "fuzzy cootie", Rhonda, has fallen asleep on her back under the area rug, with just a little brown ear and a tuft of beige fur sticking out, I fear that she will be trampled if she stays there much longer. Mr. Andy Warhol is jumping from cushion to cushion and I think getting high is the only way he can deal with the fact that his master is away at her mom's house... *sigh* I didn't drink tonight, but I sort of wish I had. You see, I was at a family gathering at my parents' house for a nice pressie exchange, and I had to be alert in case I needed to make a quick exit. I love christmas, but it puts me on edge. And it demonstrates to me that manic behavior is hereditary. For fuck's sake, I am my mother. The difference is that she refuses to take any sort of "anti-depressant" medication because she is "not depressed." I want to slip some celexa into her nog and see if it makes her chill out a teeny tiny bit. God, I am so happy that I am on medication. (Thanks to lovely Elise for getting me away from the evil zoloft!) Anyway. Medication or no medication, it only takes the edge off. But I am feeling a bit down. I've been thinking a lot about my life and where I am and where I want to go and it just seems so simple sometimes. Like I typed in an address on Mapquest.com (except we all know how accurate THOSE directions tend to be!) I probably have mentioned that a very dear friend of mine recommends that I not think in such extreme black & white terms, and I think he's right, that I will be much happier if I can accept more greys in my life. Here's a grey I'm trying to keep from preceiving as black: my dear friend, probably one of my closest friends, has told me that he can't be. I am left speechless. There is nothing I can say now. I have to accept that. It is very difficult. I always want to make speeches. I had a vision of myself that was actually quie a nice one and I haven't felt that way for a very long time. I saw myself as angelic instead of secluded. I felt like I could touch people with just my purity of intention without having to physically move them. I felt almost lythe and subliminal... quite a contrast to my usual feeling of clumsy and desperate. Can I really move someone to go silent on me out of guilt? Guilt because he didn't want anything... hmmm. Why give it a second thought, I wonder. How did I end up slithering into his psyche like this anyway? I wonder if my feelings of jealousy will go away when I feel good about myself. I'm going to try that out. These days, my jealousy consumes me like a thick cough, a sweet tickle in my lungs that infects me and sends that sick and seething sensation into my bloodstream and I swear I can almost see green pulsating behind the whites of my eyes. And I want to faint out of sheer disgust. In less than a week my list crush Mr. Ben Apps will be here with me. How did that happen? What powers in the universe granted me such influence as to make someone as sweet and adorable as Ben travel so far to spend our holiday together... I will never know. I am just grateful for it. When I think about what a lovely gesture that is, I feel less than slightly mental and less tempermental and more beautiful than anyone could ever imagine me being. That idea, right now, is perhaps the most romantic thing I have ever thought in my entire life. Regardless of what happens, that one concept is perfection to me, and I just wanted to write it down for safe keeping. The cats are napping on beds now, with visions of sugarplums dancing in their heads, I imagine! I'm about to catch the train to sleepytown and hopefully dream of nice settings with lovely people and happy times to come. Those are my favorite dreams... they have a funny way of working themselves into reality. Holiday cheer and love to you all! love, Rachel fruitloop __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Send your FREE holiday greetings online! http://greetings.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: do you consider that poetry? or do you know what the words mean?
by Richard Gillanders 25 Dec '01

25 Dec '01

I hope to continue this. I mean to. have read little and understood less. as a result. or from a result. it is confusing that someone may well say a question as ask it. a fondness for 'or'. a fondness for 'someone'. can a person be allowed to never do more than one thing? this has little or less to do with ambition. this part should be higher up. and less inaccurate. or more. sometimes there's a compulsion to read the closing before the opening. not always. I mean no harm. I love you. hope you are well. see you soon. __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Everything you'll ever need on one web page from News and Sport to Email and Music Charts http://uk.my.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Next you will be telling me jesus wasnt born on the 25th........
by Hannah Louise Brown 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

I feel stunned, shocked and slightly hurt to know that i have been lied to for 15 long years. Did you see the programme? Did you gasp in disbelief at the horror? YES, it is true, Alled Jones, the baby boy wonder with his crooked teeth and angelic voice DID NOT SING "walking in the air" from The Snowman! ! ! ! He just re-recorded it and cashed loads of money from its success. Can you honestly believe it! I'm not sure life is worth living now. It seems there has been a flux (if that's the right word) of new listies so hello to Alyson, Maryam and Lynne. I didn't know you could get B&S t-towels. We should get one for PF. How dedicated would that be? Listening to them whilst washing up, then drying up with their t-towel! Well done to richard gillanders for quite possibly the funniest quote this year: "My life seems. Oh forget it." Um, and that's it, another quiet evening spent listening to the negative drooling of my uncle and father has made me hide away and spend many minutes wasting people's time with bad e-mails sorry love hannah +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: oh my
by maryam! 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

I woke up, booted my computer and opened my inbox to realize that my first impression was... um... Even though I'm sure more of you do not want a short synopsis of my life, I'll give you at least some idea of who I am... I'm most likely the youngest of you. I'm looking to go to art school, so I'm painitng like crazy right now. Some of my art is here: www.tbns.net/mothballqueen/art/index.html. I've been a belle + sebastian fan for about a year now, I heard about them on a Tori Amos forum I belong to (I'm a huge fan of her, also) and I've been hooked since. I've never seem them live... well, because they don't come here to the East coast. Alright, I need to go untangle a sparrow from our christmas lighting :( So merry christmas, everyone.... :D ~maryam *In a forest pitch-dark Glowed the tiniest spark It burst into flame Like me* *~http://tempestinateacup.cjb.net~* aim: tempestinateacup +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: And that the spirit of union and kindness...
by Daniela Varanda 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

Hello. Today is the 24th and most families in the world are getting ready for being together in the evening, chating, sometimes praying, and getting to know about all those thing they didn't know about everyone, cause they didn't even phoned each other during the year. There's a Christmas tree in my house. An artificial tree, which we don't even have in Brazil in the natural shape. This is only my opinion, but I think everything is too artificial during Christmas time. So I hope you don't have the same feeling. I hope you enjoy this time. Smile, think about the ones you love, not about the ones you lost. Try to get along well with your parents. I can't give you any hint, but it's better not to fight this time. Because two years later, you are going to hate Christmas even more, because of all the stupid memories you kept from the years before. I'm an example, you don't have to be. ;) I wish you all a good 24th - 25th, a lot of food, parties and friends. Kisses, Daniela _______________________________________________________________________________________________ Yahoo! GeoCities Tenha seu lugar na Web. Construa hoje mesmo sua home page no Yahoo! GeoCities. É fácil e grátis! http://br.geocities.yahoo.com/ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: um
by rendall lynne 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

> > hello sinister, being my first post i really wanted to make it long, >clever > > and interesting - but um this isn't that so apologies in advance. > > > > Just wanted to ask if anybody else clocked 'a' bloke from mogwai at the >qmu? > > There may have been others from the band with him, just recognised him > > though. > > > > I got a b&s tea towel and fold your hands... t-shirt. Yeeeeaah, early > > christmas present to myself i decided, cos no-one else would get me > > something as pretty. I even wrapped them up in sparkly paper and >ribbons > > and put them under my christmas tree marked: To Lynne, Love Belle and > > Sebastian xxx hehe that'll confuse my gran on christmas day, "What >unusual > > names your friends have nowadays dear." > > > > "A tea-towel! How thoughtful they are too." > > > > Oh dearie me. Had 'the' most excellent time at the gig in glasgow, only >half > > a song in to their set where i turned round to my brother grinning from >ear > > to ear like a cheshire cat and we quickly agreed this was already the >best > > gig we had ever been to, and we have clocked up a pretty impressive >amount > > between us over the years. Yes twas our first time seeing them play. >(and > > yes we are both still grinning yet) > > > > I apologise to the poor soul that kept passing me to/from the bar to >whom I > > barraged with my comments of how the ampersand t-shirt suits me so much >more > > than it did him although I wasn't wearing it, so was unable to back my >(ever > > so humble) opinion up. > > > > And also sorry to anyone who may have almost choked on any long brown >hairs > > in their pint (my bunches were both soaking at the ends due to much >jiggin > > about and grooving, i had at least one complaint that one had dipped >into a > > drink, so goodness only knows how many others i may have unknowingly > > infiltrated with my dancing jiggin hair.) > > > > There wasn't nearly enough dancing going on, is this something that is > > frowned upon at a b&s gig? Cos i wouldn't like it if i had offended >anyone > > by being emm happy and um you know, enjoying myself. > > > > Anyway that's all for now. > MERREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE >CHRISTMASSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!! > > > > (war is over) > > > > Lynne x > > > > _________________________________________________________________ > > Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at >http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp. > > _________________________________________________________________ Chat with friends online, try MSN Messenger: http://messenger.msn.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: It's all a question of me me me and you you you.
by Ruvi Simmons 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

I have never been carol singing. At 5am, that seems peculiarly significant. Occassionally, I sing Away in a Manger in the style of a Home Counties seven year old, but I don't think the two amount to the same. Of course, it is too late both in the day and my life to begin visiting houses, song book in cold-numbed hand, so I will have to accept that the experience has passed me by but, yes, its absence is a felt non-presence, as it were, in the pre-dawn of this Christmas Eve. One day, we'll all die. That's a sad notion, isn't it? It troubled me more when I was younger than it does now, probably because my brain has sand-bagged the sense of tragedy into a corner for my own safety. I should be more absurd, but I'm not. Recently, I have been listening to lots of music. I go in waves of interest and disinterest, but at the moment I have been spending as much non-existent money as I can muster on CDs and records. I bought a Serge Gainsbourgh CD. He's crap, isn't he? I fail to see how singing in a raspy French voice can in any way elevate his brand of music above the status of flaccid easy listening. Rod Stewart, on the other hand, isn't crap. Or Cat Stephens. Or Hope Sandoval. Or Johnny Cash. A little bit of somebody else's humanity enshrined on record. Music to invoke existence's magic strikes me as being the only stuff worth listening to, and the only art worth seeking. But then I'm always trying to recapture a state of childhood bliss, of a sort. In Tower Records yesterday, there was a young girl in front of me, about nine, and her face was covered in red blotches, while her voice had the rough tone of an adult. She could barely reach the counter, but her eyes glittered wisely, and sadly. Her shoes were dirty, and the laces had lost their little plastic caps, exposing the ends which had already begun to fray at the tips. I thought that if we could build ourselves on an untarnished child, gaining understanding and experience without destroying the wonder and spirit of joy that comes from times we don't remember, we would be doing alright. I have been spending lots of time in churches, because they are epic, and they're ours. I'd like to remember that sometimes, pitching human majesty against that of the stars. Think of all the heroes and the dignity and rage of the sea and our own lives. Nothing is eternal, but does that make our lives less grand? I'd like to see platforms dotted around the globe like a web of beacons, with people standing on them, shaking their fists and laughing and crying at the world stretching beneath their feet. Star-gazing not shoe-gazing. That would be nice. Which makes this splurge quite circular. From nothingness to being, and from transience to raging, raging. I'll be quiet now. Happy Christmas to one and all. Ruvi. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: *trembling nervously*
by Alyson 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

hi, you sinister people. my name is alyson, and i've been a lurker for quite some time now. i figured now was a good time for my first post. i am still stumped as to how, exactly, people make their first posts around here. even though i've read a few first posts from others, when it comes to introducing myself, i just want to close the "compose mail" window and put it off another day/week/month. =) ah, well. here i go. i am a terribly shy girl that lives in austin, texas. i first heard belle & sebastian a long time ago because a boy on the bis mailing list mentioned them and i thought i would give them a listen (how different they are from bis, i can't remember why he mentioned b&s... maybe some scottish band conversation). i think the boy's name was ferny. anyway, i loved b&s from the first song i heard... too bad my friends seem to think they are horrible. in fact, i only ever get to listen to them when i'm alone, in order to keep the others from griping about how bad my music is. so, b&s is a very private thing for me... but i suppose that's where you come in. =) some other things i like are sanrio, anime, video games (ddr!), drawing, and being a bad student. i am halfway through my first year of university. i take classes through the ut telecampus, which is a marvelous invention. other bands i like listening to are death cab for cutie, stereolab, pizzicato 5, bis, and grandaddy. i am 20 and my birthday is in july. i have an orange cat. i'd love an email from anyone sinister... and my aim name is xxkeroleenxx. happy holidays and stay warm! love, alyson p.s. i would have to agree with maryam-- i am definitely becoming quite jealous of those who are seeing b&s live... or those who have -ever- seen b&s live, as i fit into neither category. =) +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: ho ho ho
by maryam! 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

Hi there. I'm new. I live in Washington D.C. My name is maryam. Nice to meet you all! Happy Holiday festivities! Brits have been spoiled with very nice B+S shows and I'm quite jealous. *In a forest pitch-dark Glowed the tiniest spark It burst into flame Like me* *~http://tempestinateacup.cjb.net~* aim: tempestinateacup +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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by Tim Banning 24 Dec '01

24 Dec '01

Hello, currently, I'm struggling to get a mix CD done for my uncle. It's been a slightly joyus and frustrating process, taking many hours...but It must be done in an hour and a half for the girl is coming over. It has been a couple months (I think) since I last posted, not that a whole lot of people have noticed. I wish everyone a very merry christmas. This year, more than any other year, I actually feel the christmas spirit. I actualy told my mom who was feeling rather bah-humbugish early this month that I did not need anything as far as presents go this year and if she'd like she could give whatever she did get me to someone who never gets anything...we'll see if this actually happens. Either way, I still find myself looking under the tree for presents with my name. It makes me happy to find and give presents this year. I'm also in a position where I can buy nice things for people and not just the usual Led Zepplin CD. I LOVE the new B.S. Ep. I made a Belle and Sebastian mix cd for my parents' boss. He loved it. I havn't been reading a whole lot of Sinister Mails lateley. I've been getting about 20-40 shit mails everyday and It's really frustrating, especially when I'm waiting from emails from long lost friends. I bet the belfast gig was amazing. I got a bootleg of some shows a while ago and it just fuels one's silly obsession with this band. damn. oh well, pretty worthless email, have a nice Christmas everyone. tim _________________________________________________________________ MSN Photos is the easiest way to share and print your photos: http://photos.msn.com/support/worldwide.aspx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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