February 2002 - Sinister

Sinister: The Ringing Hand
by Kieran Devaney 03 Feb '02

03 Feb '02

1) He is an American but has lost the accent after travelling and living in England for a few years. 2) He wants to present, and has passed numerous screen tests, both for Carlton (the ITV people) and MTV - only three more screen tests and he's 'on'. Presenting is what he really wants to do. What did he find most difficult during the screen tests? a) The way that you have to act as though you've known someone all your life when the cameras are rolling, when in fact you've only just met them. b) The earpiece. At first it was difficult to talk and be talked to at the same time, hard to differentiate between receiving an instruction and carrying out an instruction simultaneously. c) The way some people just freeze up when they have cameras on them was annoying - that doesn't happen to him. 3) He could never 'do Blue Peter' because it's all scripted - he could handle jumping out of planes and all the other traditional Blue Peter fare, but spontanaiety of speech is what he craves. 4) Thinking long term he'd really like to do a show where he gets to 'just paint and talk' in front of the cameras (at this point I interjected, he wasn't talking to me, with "Like Bob Ross?" his reply was "Who?"). Thats what he wants to do. 5) His girlfriend is a model back in the states. She is soon to be seen on 'trashy' American soap 'Days of our Lives' (I'm not familiar with this, but I have seen 'The Bold and the Beautiful' which, I'm told, is similar). 6) He wants to 'travel' - "You learn so much more during a year travelling than you ever would during a year at school." He has been all over the place already. 7) He doesn't want to be tied down to one thing - "That would be boring." Life, for him it seems, is all about variety. "So why are you training to be an art teacher?" the boy he was talking to asked, "It's just something else - so i *can* teach at the end of it." he answered, with a faraway look. 8) He could spend his whole life just painting, he could paint solidly for a day - a week, "... just have loads of canvases on the go at once..." "Thats how Kerouac wrote 'On The Road' isn't it?" I again interjected, "I don't know." He answered, bemused. 9) He has sold his work before, and reckons that the best way to get your work exhibited at a gallery is just to go to the owner, or person in charge and show them something you've done and ask if they're interested - "He might see three people in a week, and take on two, or maybe three.." 10) He thinks i need more 'texture' in my work because "When you first look at it, it suggests texture, but then when you actually touch it, it's smooth." The first time he said that I said that I liked that idea, the discord. But now I haven't the heart to disagree, so I just nod, knowing full well the deadline was weeks ago. 11) He didn't like this years Turner Prize winner because the artist couldn't justify what he had done when he was interviewed, couldn't intellectualise about his art. Graham Greene said that no human being can ever truly know another human being. Remember Pyle, the quiet American, so much lay below the surface there didn't it? _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: 2 cups black treacle; 12oz (300g) bulgur wheat; an airport
by figure2＠fsmail.net 03 Feb '02

03 Feb '02

In the volume house building business, each site is a development of lots of houses arranged with a casual artiness along curvilinear roadways and cul-de-sacs, the latter being from the French: say, a vessel closed at one end; a wee suburban balloon. In order to satisfy the local authorities that our proposals are thoroughly in line with expected mediocrity: in order for us to mutter a queazy agreement about it all, we produce 'street scenes'. I have computer design files of various elevations of houses designed a long time ago in London but given local names, say, 'Ravelston', 'Dunedin', 'Crail', Leven', 'Kinghorn' etc. With the aid of text files listing plot numbers and an overall plan and coloured pencils and scribbles I can calculate that, say, plot 147 is a 'Ravelston' with grey tiles and red bricks and plot 148 is a 'Kinghorn' with different tiles and different bricks and perhaps quoins (corner stones) in a contrasting texture or colour. How pretty. Anyway, the exercise of producing the 'street scenes' I desire to make hot-house fast, to stave off the boredom, so I'm rattling around the copy and paste and scale and orthogonal snap functions whispering the cache memory of my own brain which reads 'Dun Rav Lev (A) Rav Lev (B... different tiles and bricks to (A)) Dun Kin Duncan Drookit Docket...' celebrating the plot 363 edge of phases three and two by adding a flagpole and decorative extras to the built-in garage of a 'Ravelston' which I draw on a layer that I will later freeze, so as nobody else will see it. Angels, flying donkeys and 3m thick insulation can be added, as appropriate, after a similar fashion. So that's the day. At the train station, the train is always late but, if it arrives and it's not a juddering cattle truck, one is grateful. There are lots of people on the platform waiting to rush into its confines, and the canny ones stand staring at the shit and toilet paper on the tracks because shit = toilets= end of carriage= doors into carriage= possibility of a seat, even a seat by the window. Even if, by this time, it is long since dark. One can stare at one's reflection in silhouette, which has the charming effect of removing one's complexional problematics and thus constitutes a boost to the ego along with the having been canny and got a seat in the first place. Time to read the 'jobs vacant' section of two or three newspapers or, if one is lucky, someone has left a tabloid full of gossip and horoscopes. I'm trying to think of a short-cut to the internal attitude of your average aristocrat. In the name of democracy, of course. I was watching Raoul Ruiz's 'Time Regained', based on the final volume of the Proust trilogy and hailed as 'A cine-literary miracle' by the Evening Standard. I was chatting about this in sini to some Proust experts (I digress here) who, quite plausibly suggested that cinema and Proust couldn't profit from a connection. My contention is that this particular film is highly unusual as it leaves a great deal in the gaps and overloads the content with multiple layers. For example, the narrator frequently appears in both younger and older guises simultaneously in the shot, whilst maintaining seperate spaces, and the shift from reportage to surrealism is more deft than leaping. Returning to my psychological parlour games, it was a scene in the above film that got me thinking. Aristocrats are rather sure of themselves, mainly because they are infused with a palpable sense of lineage. Ignoring, for a moment, that this lineage is also conceived as being superior to that of the 'common herd' one can take the basic fact that here are people who sit, on a daily basis and at leisure, surrounded by rather large pictures of their grannies, dads, uncles, deceased dogs and horses owned by great-grandfathers and so on, in a big room. In this very straightforward circumstance they have both the challenge to live up to the expectations of their phantom imaginations and therein also form the character of difference to those who do not share the noses, gazes and landscape settings of these guys set up in oil paint. John Berger who, I think, is married to Isabel Allende who, I think further, is the daughter of an ex-president of Argentina, wrote in his 'Ways of Seeing' that most conventional portraiture was a means of describing property... a sort of pictogrammic inventory, if you like. Witness all these stray guns, plates, skulls, fields, mirrors in a pre-20th century portrait. Just a thought. The sinister crowd are a mobile bunch, huh? Seemingly some folks are moving to Scotland, there seems to be a Greek exchange thing going on and New York gets lots of visitors. Which kind of leaves San Fran, Brazil, Norway, Poland and Singapore out a bit, to name some almost random places. I was once a player in organising international meet-ups of architecture students... I'm getting wanderlust. Maybe it's all the talk of settling: my mortgage and garden speculations, that did it. What about 500 of us, from all over the world, camping in a circus big top for a week? We could do some useful community project, say, and invite belle and seb to take part in the evening revelries. Mmm... just another thought. But one that I've seen happen before, so it's possible. The big top was in Belgium. I'll send you pictures if you want. Gordon _______________________________________________________________________ Never pay another Internet phone bill! 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Sinister: waiting for the man
by Tim Banning 03 Feb '02

03 Feb '02

Holy god. Whom ever went to the belfast gig is a lucky fellow. I just have one question...who is singing "waiting for the man" It's just amazing. The band was sooo tight and sounded great. Does anyone know where I can make an actual download of the gig. or can you dowload somehow off of realplayer. I was also thinking of how the band has been playing a bunch (sorta) of gigs lately. Stuarts (not to mention stevie's) singing voice is getting much stronger as result. I'm wondering if this is going to have an effect on the way the record sounds. Not that it's a bad thing if it does happen because I really like the way IWUTU sounds. just a thought. anyway take care all. tim _________________________________________________________________ Send and receive Hotmail on your mobile device: http://mobile.msn.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Midwest picnics, dreaming of Honey
by The Cat's Pajamas 03 Feb '02

03 Feb '02

Hi all, It's been a while since I posted, and the last time I did post, I didn't say anything particularly important. Keeping better track of my Sinister e-mails is my February 2nd resolution, since I really hate the idea of only being able to make long lasting changes in your life once a year... First off, MIDWEST/CHICAGO meeting! Our beloved Amy Applejacks has proposed a Sinister midwest gathering, and I'm all for it. I'm willing and eager to do a Sinister round up in the Chicagoland region and drive all the little doggies down the trail to wherever Ms. Applejacks wishes. Everyone should attend, really...I don't know a date, a place, or anything else, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't clear your calendar for the next 8 months, just in case:) I met Honey last night in my dream! I was in #sinister, and somebody was going to prison in the UK, and they asked for my help to escape. So I went over there to help break them out. I dressed in a suit because I realized that would prevent the guards from being suspicious about me...I went into the prison and I needed Honey's help to unlock the computer system doors. I found a great big office part of the prison, although it didn't look like a prison at all. It had wood paneling floor to ceiling, large picture windows, chandeliers and a very official feel to it. I found Honey and was just starting to say "I can't believe I'm meeting you!" and then woke up...How tragic :( So there, now I can say I've posted in the past 3 months...nothing terribly exciting, but if anyone's interested in Midwest gatherings, let me know ;) I've gotta bounce for now, bye all! Jason _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Fabruary, Here I Come!
by breams plural 03 Feb '02

03 Feb '02

Hello to all... I've been out of the loop for a while. I've come to London and found a job and tried to get my life sorted out and I now realise that "the world has turned and left me here" so to speak. Though the only way I can honestly tell that is the length of daylight increasing ever so slightly by comparison to what I remember from last time I noticed it. ***Pointless-ramble-about-something-that-must've-meant-something-to-me-sometime-but-now-appears-to-just-be-taking-up-valuable-space-in-my-already-clogged-and-badly-managed-mind: Part 1 (or, "stuff about flats and jobs") My sister is moving to back to Perth with her fianceé in 15 days. This makes me feel sad and lonely, though I know that I'm just being self-centred. As a result, I've gone out and found a room in a houseshare in London (Hackney Downs), and attached myself to a temping agency (though the work I'm actually doing is with the London Borough of Camden in their finance department, which deals mainly with parking tickets and associated enquiries) so that I can stay and do "stuff" rather than having to deport myself. It does help having employment too though, so if I combine my working and moving, I come out somewhat resembling the only living boy in Blackheath. I haven't moved in yet, but the flat's nice. It's got wooden floorboards throughout. What more must one say? So, good stuff is happening there. I went out last night for work drinks for only the second time in my entire (yet meagre) era of worldwide employment. We went to a pub in Camden, near work, and all had a few. Blood flowed and drink was spilt, but not the reverse. Plus I was referred to as an "old boy" for rolling my own cigarettes. Although, amongst a pack of Marlboro Lights smokers I did come across as a little eccentric. I also had to work today, but had the wonderful benefit of my CD walkman to keep me company. So, I've started on the impossible task of attempting to convince the aged ears of my colleagues to appreciate the youthful strains of Belle & Sebastian, Kings Of Convenience, Camera Obscura and others. Thus far I've convinced a nice Finnish girl that Kings Of Convenience is "definitely worth buying" and a West Ham supporting "geezer" that Belle & Sebastian are "great! you should look into them!". I'm not sure any of this constitutes a victory over the evils of middle aged radio listeners, but it certainly makes for something else to talk about other than parking tickets. I'm currently attempting to convince myself that I should start writing more songs and consider recording them somewhere, though I'll be the first one to point out that I can only fabricate so much as far as justification and belief go. I'm sticking at it, just because one or two of you would kick my arse for saying I was doing otherwise, but I doubt whether I'm actually going to achieve much from it. It's just a grand scheme. So it looks as though my year is going to consist of little variety. just the usual suspects: 1) Complaining that it "doesn't rain properly in London!" 2) Attempting to convince myself that the idea I have at that time is a wonderful and somewhat original one that deserves all my available time and energy, and will NOT go the way of my last wonderful and somewhat original idea that deserved all my...(etc) 3) Intending to "sort myself out a bit" but doing nothing about it 4) Neglecting a friend or two because of repeatedly "Attempting to convince myself...etc...etc..." 5) Being a matron of honour at my sisters wedding Basically, that's my plan for this year. And it all starts here and now. It's already February and I've got to show for it is a list of times and places that I got drunk with Ken that he won't let me forget, even though I can't even remember. Funnily enough, that leave me with another 4.5 months to fill, that remain completely empty. Oh yeah...I know I saw a film or two in that time too. So, basically...I've got no point here whatsoever and I'm not being the least bit entertaining, and I should really have just sent the subject line and left the rest blank as it would've had more entertainment value. ***Content*** I'm going to the London and Edinburgh gigs. Nothing of REAL content in that, I know...but it makes me feel like less of a waste of good server space if I put that in there. ***End Of Content*** Well, sorry I can't make Brighton next weekend, but I'll be moving into my new place and trying to get the hang of living on my own properly. But I WILL endeavour to attend the Track & Field night on Friday. So if you're around then, I will be too. g'night and g'day to all *waves* Jeremy _________________________________________________________________ Join the worlds largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. http://www.hotmail.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Cake or Death (or exams)!
by Amy Skelton 02 Feb '02

02 Feb '02

Hello everyone (take#2 - the save draft on Hotmail managed to mess up again)! Tom has managed to coax me out of lurkerdom for a little while. I did not go to Offbeat last night, unfortunately it wasn't because I was having a lovely weekend in the Cairngorms or anything instead I had an Engineering Management exam this morning - Saturday exams should be banned! I could be seen having a quick revision break disturbing people in the queue for Offbeat and making a gibbering fool of myself in front of - oh well never mind that.... I just keep having to thinks happy thoughts of all the things I've got to look forward to when I finish. My last exam is on Thursday and then I'm going to Abersoch for a surf kayaking weekend - yeah!! I love going there but I remember the first time I went and discovered that the bay we were going in had a name that roughly translates to English as 'Hell's Mouth' and being a wee bit concerned... I would love to make this a longer mail but I need to start revising for the next exam - it's just never ending! Take care... ...Amy P.S. To anyone else who has still got exams/coursework to contend with - chin up peeps... _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: cake and balloons! Offbeat!
by Tom Pettinger 02 Feb '02

02 Feb '02

Hello assorted people, ....confusion about my time of waking, this can only mean one thing...Offbeat last night. And what an Offbeat it was! We had a lovely cake and balloons and party poppers (the little bottle shaped things that spew mini-streamers, before you ask) and I had a request done (Le Pastie.) Actually I had two (Panic) but I think he was going to play them anyway because Chris is such a darn good DJ. Gill is too. We also got little sticker albums for our collectable Offbeat "A-Z of Indie" stickers, I shall be collecting all of them and selling them in 20 years for an immense sum of money. Jules, you should have come! Is anyone going to Leeds on the 9th? If you are, I hope to see you there but whereas most people when they say, "I hope to see you there" mean "I'm going too" this one's a genuine 50/50, it all depends on those small pieces of green and brown paper and how they arrange themselves. Had a lot of things wanted to comment on but I can't remember them now, which is probably for the best. Oh, yeah... B&S gigs, I like Rebecca miss them closely, but I'm not as annoyed as I expected to be honest. Wait, I had a delgados request granted as well... Another thing...although I don't mind the fifty pence increase to three pounds for offbeat entrance, you *no longer get the full can of red bull* when ordering Ken's favourite liquid. And if you are the guy who put his full pint of John Smiths on our table only to have money accidently dropped in it, have it decanted into two half pint glasses and then ladled and teemed back into the original glass, I'm sorry, very sorry! But you/he was very friendly and it just goes to show, 'cos in any other club in Sheffield you would have been slaughtered for that. Da da da, just biding my time, waiting for the memories of things I wanted to say flood back into my head. It's quite weird how long posts I write take no time at all and I still have to limit myself as to content, but short posts have me scratching my head for hours. Nope. Have fun Tom XX P.S. I saw most sinister/offbeat regulars last night, nice to see you. Amy, you weren't there, probably had exciting other things to do, hope you enjoyed your holiday. (the Christmas one) P.P.S. Actually, I had *another* request sort of granted, I requested The Primitives "Crash" and another Prims. one, he played one/two genuine Prims then a good cover of Crash. Nice one! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: rolling green hills and cigarettes
by bus stoppers 02 Feb '02

02 Feb '02

greetings and salutations... i am bored and it's friday night. so i thought i would post. plus i have some stuff to vent out and no friends near by in the human form. you peoples all get subjected instead. here's my version of storytelling, only it's all nonfiction. and it's a little less awkward and a bit more sad. my grandmother died a year ago last halloween. it was sudden and it was a shock. i had just moved out on my own three days previous. that halloween my roommate took me to downtown san diego so that we could gawk at all the freaks. it was my first celebration of newfound freedom. mikey and i got home and there were five messages from my mom. "sara, are you sitting down?" "no. what are you talking about?" "your grandma kojaku died today." i don't really remember much after that. there was the viewing, the funeral, the reception. since i was the oldest of all the grandchildren, i had to be the strong one, the one to greet most of the other funeral goers on behalf of the grandchildren. blah blah blah. about a few months later, it was diagnosed that my grandfather had dementia. well, alzheimer's to be exact. i was in san diego and he was in l.a. i had two jobs and an old volvo who didn't like the freeway. i couldn't really visit him and i got shit from my parent's all the time. then after a year in san diego, i decided to move to l.a. and take care of grandpa. he was getting worser by the day, and my uncle didn't want to deal with it anymore. i moved in with my other grandparents and would go over there twice a day. everything was going okay. he seemed to be doing okay. not really getting better, as there is no cure, but he was getting into a routine and liked having me around for company. if you know anything about the disease, i don't really have to say what kind of craziness went on. it was just elevated to a whole other level when my dad and his two brothers started in on what i assume has been years and years of pented up grudges. my uncle that didn't want to deal anymore, was even talking trash about me behind my back. it got bad. i don't even know what the fuck was going on. then grandpa went into the hospital. he was anemic and we didn't know and some dialysis stuff too. he stopped eating and one night i even had to call 911. that was the scariest. after that we hired a real caregiver. i couldn't handle it anymore, emotionally or physically. i couldn't handle the family drama either. sigh. anyway, i haven't seen my grandfather since new year's day. after seeing him on new year's i realized that i wasn't as strong as i thought. i even made my mom take me back to my other grandparent's house because i couldn't stand to be in the house. should i feel bad? guilty? or should i feel bad and guilty about not feeling as bad and guilty as i should...? i have already accepted my grandmother's death. i have accepted that my grandfather is dying. i have accepted that i am not the strong, emotionally stable person i often wish i was. but when i was sitting at the green hills cemetary this afternoon, i don't know. it made me forget everything that i had told myself that i knew. i used to be one of those skeptics that thought it was weird when people went and talked to dead relatives and stuff. i talked to my grandma today. and in her own heavenly way, she reassured me that everything would be okay. grandpa would be fine. my uncles would be alright. my dad would get better. and that i was fine. even though it was a good experience, i couldn't help leaving the plot feeling a bit...down... i just needed to get that all out. my apologies for the length and whatnot...but thank you for listening. tears and hankies, sara __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Great stuff seeking new owners in Yahoo! Auctions! http://auctions.yahoo.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Get Your Muthaf**kin' 9lb Cock On (hic)
by Sam Walton 02 Feb '02

02 Feb '02

Howdy Sinister. ASM: It's technically Saturday morning. I'm very sad to be posting email of any description at this juncture, but this is a special occasion. To my right is Feather Boa, opposite her is Mr Stuart Hallifax, but the big occasion for this is that Ms Archel Playforth, legendary in this parish, is sitting opposite me... Here comes a group post... We've had a very entertaining night. We've discovered that Asm's middle names are (arguably) very embarrassing. Although they're not really. They're actually fucking cool. ;-) Archel has graced us with her presence: ARCHEL: i have spent most of the night suffering from chronic hiccups which suggests that i am far more drunk than i actually am. (The fact that it took her 5 minutes to type this sentence suggests that she's in fact more drunk than she actually is - Asm)... ARCHEL: ok so i am drunk but i get hiccups anyway - it's genetic. it has been very weird to be back here in york (my alma mater). but i can still buy cheap guinness which is something. i am correcting my typos as i go which proves what a good editor i am - see http://www.buzzwords.ndo.co.uk for more evidence... ASM: Hmm, it's my post (technically) but I seem to have had the mantle stolen from me rather viciously by the Queen Of Smut herself. However, everybody seems to know that she's on campus, and obviously want a piece of her: people are at the windows of the 'pooter room, screaming "I want your cock" - her response to that (and I quote) "well, y'know, it could be a fake one". Queen Of Smut? Oh yes. FEATHER BOA: hulllo, i walked in a puddle and mr walton gave me a fireman's lift. then he made some joke about how he hardly ever got to pick up girls nowadays. *bless*. sorry for being drunk last time i posted, and indeed this time. i promise next time i'll be sober and i'll say all the stuff i want to say about spring being sprung and sinister being in love. Mr Stuart Hallifax noted that he didn't have anything more humourous to add than the fact that Feather Boa walked in a puddle, and that Archel has a strap-on. And so it seems that this is to where the post is degenerating: Smut. It seems that it's all you can expect when even in the presence of Archel, and any collective of sinister people in one space. We will abandon ship, only to view this post in the cold light of day, when cliche is cliche, and we understand the true horror of what we have actually done. Yours, with love, honourary Red Bulls, ducks and all rest of that twee crappola that goes along with this bizarre community (pip pip), Asm, Archel, FB and Stuart Hallifax (P.S. Archel still hiccups after the sign-off) P.P.S. I hope you all appreciate the P.S. in brackets - nearly as pretentious as Radiohead's track, entitled "(Nice Dream)"... ;-( P.P.P.S. ARCHEL: Hic. ================================ "He's strictly a pain in the ass, but he certainly has a good vocabulary" - Holden Caulfield "He's not the Messiah, he's a very naughty boy" - Mary Cohen _________________________________________________________________ Chat with friends online, try MSN Messenger: http://messenger.msn.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: new fable
by Jules Markham 02 Feb '02

02 Feb '02

greetings and salutations! So what have persil, batchelors supernoodles and Offbeat got in common? They've all been advertised by John 'God' Peel I was supposed to be going to offbeat tonight, with it's free stickers and penchant for 1/2 man 1/2 biscuit songs and gills perpetual pulp embargo. But I was in a bit of a spirit ditch, and even though I'd managed to find chris a fox badge to give him, I stayed home and baked a chocolate cake for mikeys birthday. It looks pretty impressive. I covered in with melted chocolate and made a heart out of smarties in the middle. I wanted to get more for him for his birthday, but it kinda snuck up on me, and so I'm just taking him out to our 2nd fave pub in sheffield to spend all day drinking. We heard that B&S are touring again, and after much discussion, we've decided not to go. For one thing, money is pretty tight, and for another thing, we both end up crying through most of the songs. we remember listening to them late at night, alone in the darkness and finding meaning in every word, every sigh. I miss the stories on the sleeves, I used to buy 12" versions just for reading them. well, I'll pootle off now, and just add that anyone who misses the black fox can find her at www.theblackfox.co.uk, where there's a new story and illustration. sleep well Jules _________________________________________________________________ Join the worlds largest e-mail service with MSN Hotmail. http://www.hotmail.com +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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