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Sinister: god's eating fire and the devil's inside
by s.santabarbara＠qmul.ac.uk 11 Dec '04

11 Dec '04

And one day I realised I was dimensionless. Lost my features, face, arms legs, not even a section or a plane, nor the one-dimensional marcusian man, or a dot, an adimensional entity. Or the imaginary part of a complex number? Do you know that the refractive index is an imaginary quantity? It had always amused me, is what creates all the colours and the images we see, and despite being real, is not Real. Sure the heart still pumping gallons of blood trough my veins and arteries and the circulation seems to be in a fairly good shape, the lungs are blowing the air in out mechanically, like a perfect clockwork, all this effort through an non existing body. Cruelty is mechanical. Like any mathematician would tell you. Is cold, colder then walking through the frozen lakes in night without moon and starts in the sky, is sharp, as a well tempered razor blade, is precise, as meticulous springs and gears in a machine, is methodical, as an exercise book of linear algebra. Walking in the fresh air, I did suddenly realise that most of all is worthless. And yes, I am a living thing too with a heart pumping blood trough veins and arteries and lungs are blowing the air in and out all but mechanically. I can even think, talk, write, discuss, iron, wash, cook, run, walk, work, love and for Christs sake, suffer. Do I taste like nothing? Do I poison like nothing? Black chocolate, and brandy, and lets go to the massacre of sentiments. For I havent got anything to lose anymore. Love hate whatever you want stefano +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: I'm in love....
by idleberry 11 Dec '04

11 Dec '04

.. I'm listening at the moment to "ice dance" from the Edward Scissorhands soundtrack. I'd forgotten all about it, until I was watching television briefly a few weeks ago. They had used a song from the Amelie soundtrack as music for something in a TV show (I forget which or what), and then they had this song. And I'd forgotten how beautiful it was. It just puts me in a dreamy mood, almost perfect. I swear it's the perfect song for wintertime. Love idles xxx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: You know Theyre out to get you
by Katia913＠aol.com 09 Dec '04

09 Dec '04

Sinister, love of my life. What do you do when you know someone is cheating you?? A good friend of mine lives in the same house as I. We moved in a week before classes started and read in the sun, went for long walks, listened to music and everything in between. One afternoon I was telling this chick about Nick Drake and Sleater Kinney. We talked about it for a long while; the conversation ended with me handing her a few of my favorite CDs. She listened to then and I began making her mix tapes to listen to. Anyways, for my birthday I bought myself the coveted I-pod and went through the painstaking task of backing up every CD I own so that I could listen to it on the go. It took hours upon hours and a long time for me to realize that at least two of my cds were missing. I knew these were loaned to someone....who?? after a while, I recalled it was Jen who had some nick drake, some sleater kinney and even my favorite ep, I'm waking up to us. Last week, I brought this up to her..."Hey Jen Pen, do you remember back in summer.....i loaned you a few albums..." "No you didn't" "Actually I think I did, but regardless, I'm missing some. Could you look through yours as a favor?" "No, I didn't steal your CDs" She refuses to look. I know its only a few albums and she is a good friend, but i can't get it out of my head. What should I do, sinistereens?? xox kate +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: do you remember the first time?
by idleberry 08 Dec '04

08 Dec '04

I was pondering the other day on my relationship with Sinister. I remember when I first discovered it, in a cold basement flat in Ipswich, with my then-boyfriend, Mark. His flat was always cold, and strange slug trails would appear on the carpet in the middle of the night, like someone had taken a slimy glitter pen and drawn a random squiggle on the floor. So I think I was freezing cold, and his TV was on silent, and we had a few table lamps on. His computer sat on a table with a folding leaf, and I sat peering over his shoulder, while he gave me a sharp look because he didn't like me reading over his shoulder. I think I was feeling restless, and bored, and wanted his attention. I guess Sinister seemed strange and mysterious. All that pink, all those names I never knew, and how they all had this mysterious interaction that I wasn't part of, with my boyfriend. Random girls and boys emailing my boyfriend out of the blue, with no agenda, except to share something. And as the saying goes, if you can't beat it (technically, that could be classified as GBH) then join it. So I did. I never quite got the hold of the sinister mystique. I never discovered what it was. It just remained, something a little bit special, and like a good Christmas present, it never really aged. It never lost its sparkle, or that "smell" of newness. It aged a bit, it faded in places, some bits are starting to look doggeared and worn, but it remained the same thing. And I guess I still look at it in the same way I did one night, in that basement flat in Ipswich. Only, without the shoulder in the way. I think what I remember most about that period of time, was wandering round shops in Norwich in the winter, just as it got dusky at 4pm, and the streets were heaving with people. I liked this one shop, which sold things like throws for sofas, and cushions, and candle holders, and incense sticks. I wanted to buy so much from there, but equally, I didn't want the clutter and I couldn't afford it. Now its around the same time of year as when I first discovered Sinister. I think I made a post around Christmas time, after sitting in the nursery for a fortnight. That was around 2000. Four years on, and I'm still here. Some names look familiar, some names even have faces now. I was always intregued by Sinister posts. By the level of intelligence displayed in most of them. By the knowledge that was given, by the words of wisdom. By Ken Chu's ability to always make me laugh or smile, because he used his humour with such intelligence, it made me think "I wish I'd thought of that". I don't know why I decided to share this. I just did. idles xxx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: in the chalet lines...
by Hugo Johan <12813249＠sun.ac.za> 08 Dec '04

08 Dec '04

dear sinister how are you? i've been a terrible frined, but you're always there, by my heart, and i hope you accept me when i turn to you now... though i wish i could meet you all, go to picnics, sometimes the distant anonymity of being so far away over here can be comforting, and i'm sorry if i abuse it. but you've helped so much in the past just by being there, and i need you now too. i heard this morning that my ex was raped over the weekend. and it really really screwed with me. what makes it worse is that she's treated me so badly this whole year (in fact, i haven't heard from her in months, but she made sure i got this message, even though she didn't phone me herself) - she only seems to think of me when she's in trouble; even when we were going out she paid attention to me when she needed me - when her world was fine i was so much furniture. and it destroyed a lot of me (i'm still recovering) but i mean, this... i know she's only running to me because there are very few people left (she' got a real gift for alienating people) and i know eventually she'll just discard me like an empty packet, and i'm not sure i can deal with it. what do you do when someone has tried for so long, and in such an ugly way to push you away, and then suddenly really really needs you again? is that as selfish a way of looking at things... at THIS in particular... as it feels? can you cry for someone until they've sucked you dry, and are you a bad person if you decide not to? or if you don't have the strength? and i don't know what to do anyway - i spent the whole year trying to make her life better, and nothing i did seemed to even register, nevermind be appreciated. what do i do now? i'm not asking for advice i guess - maybe i'm looking for reassurance, or absolution, but i hope not: not from you anyway. but i just need to say something, to someone. of course i do speak to my friends, but they all hate her for what she's done to me (and no, not because of what i've said about her - about what they've seen her doing to me) and it feels so unfair: if i do what i think the right thing is to do, i'm going to fall apart again, and they're going to have to deal with me; if i do what they think i should, and which i know is the best thing for ME, then it means abandoning her when she needs me. there is no right choice i guess - i guess these things just shouldn't happen, to anyone. and no-one gets anything they deserve, good or bad - no, that's put wrongly: nobody deserves anything that happens to them, either good or bad. the universe is such a f*cked-up random mess of events. the hard part is not lying on the bed you've made... it's learning to lie on the beds life throws your way, of learning not to be unworthy of what happens to you, as deleuze said. i'm just hoping i'll be strong enough and thanks for giving me so much strength already, just for having been, and being there. love always JohaN +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: I'm a bit late for Thanksgiving but...
by grainne lynch 07 Dec '04

07 Dec '04

Hello Sinister, All the Christmas Exchange participants should have got their e-mails last Thursday and should know who they have to buy/make/glitter a present for. I had fun organising it. I liked getting your e-mails and hearing how much everyone loved the Christmas Exchange. I reminded me how much I like Sinister. Before the Christmas Exchange e-mails I dont think Id written to you in over a year, maybe two, but Ive been half-writing posts in my head for about 6 months so it was obviously time that I came out of lurkerdom. Fortunately or unfortunately, those half-written posts didnt even get as far as the Draft folder. But despite never getting in touch, I cant imagine not being part of Sinister. I will be in Dimitras old folks in years and years talking about my first B&S concert or my favourite Sinister posts. Most of the people I know on-line Ive met through Sinister. Without Sinister I wouldnt have got involved in Friends of the Heroes and wouldnt have ended up in Norway this summer with Rachel Sunnyset, listening to If youre feeling sinister in a little house on the edge of the fjord. And I cant even begin to describe the effect you have had on the music I listen to through recommendations and mix-tapes or the way I think and feel about music. So, thank you : ) You guys are pretty special to me, and if Sinister is that much quieter now, it just makes me look forward to new posts more! And theres always the archives. And this Friday I am heading to the Chickfactor Ball with a few people from Friends of the Heroes, which also wouldnt be happening without Sinister. Perhaps I will see some of you there. All my love, Grainne. -- _______________________________________________ Find what you are looking for with the Lycos Yellow Pages http://r.lycos.com/r/yp_emailfooter/http://yellowpages.lycos.com/default.as… +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Word Games....Mind Games
by Katia913＠aol.com 06 Dec '04

06 Dec '04

To the sinistereens near and far: Do you kids like Boggle?? Up until this past summer, I was a strict scrabble square, but I met a girl that changed my life in Chicago in May. I broke up with my boyfriend who loved me and I needed a change. He was calling every day. “Katie! I loooove you! I adore you” I wont play scrabble with you. My words are worth less than ten points and I’d never use all seven tiles. I returned home from school in mid-may and met someone who would change me and change how I thought about words. My best best friend in the world goes to school in the south. Carolyn came home two weeks before me and brought with her another C name. Catherine is three years older than the two of us and never met someone she didn’t know. She came to Chicago for an internship as a reporter. Her newslike voice doubled as a jazz singer nights. Catherine lived with Carolyn for the first two weeks she was in the city. Her last night with Caro was myfirst night home. The three of us went to our favorite places, Improv Olympic on a Sunday night and The Golden Nugget. We listened to Jonathan David in the car downtown. We had a great time and planned to meet up at her new apartment the following weekend for a similar week. I said I’d bring the post improvisational entertainment. When getting a messenger together to our second meetup, I realized something I’d left at school, the love of my life and fire of my loins, my scrabble. Well, we went down to the rest of the festivities and Catherine suggested we play Boggle instead. We played at the all night café all night, with all the characters nearby. All the characters I would have never given the chance to beat me. But they beat me. All summer long we brought boggle along. We brought it to parties, played it at all the cafes and diners we could walk to, played it in the park. She gave me my own before she left town. Now I play it before I grab the little tiles I so dearly loved. I don’t remember my scores and although I usually beat everyone by now, that’s not what is important. I cant tell you how many people I’ve talked to when we’ve been playing somewhere and they mention the annoying chatter from shaking the cubes. Come, sinister, and play a game with me. xoxo kate +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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SV: Sinister: He was a fortune teller
by Johan Cheander 03 Dec '04

03 Dec '04

For you who also are into The Concretes, I would like to recommend the following music (and yes they're all from Sweden, sorry ]:): Heikki - The singer of the concretes and her husband/producer Jari. http://www.heikki.cjb.net/ Sandy Mouche - Another Swedish band www.sandymouche.com /Johan -----Ursprungligt meddelande----- Från: owner-sinister(a)missprint.org [mailto:owner-sinister@missprint.org] För Katia913(a)aol.com Skickat: den 22 november 2004 20:58 Till: sinister(a)missprint.org Ämne: Sinister: He was a fortune teller Sinister, mi amore majore! For the past few days and weeks, I have been dying for a break to come home, sleep some decent hours and catch up on my reading. Now that my Thanksgiving break, a week off, has come....I am not so interested in it. Why wouldnt't I want the bustle of shopping for friends and the crispness of leaves underfoot? Because I am in love. I met him on Halloween. Ran into him at the Mates of State show. Now he is almost mine. His name is Frederick. The first tall man I have been able to find with curly dish water hair. He is gorgeous in a red turtleneck and blue asics tigers. And dont get me started on the music. Thursday he picked me up because it was raining. We drove to his house, far away from campus by the faregrounds, a large house with three other boys. He is going to be mine. We watched Wet Hot American Summer and talked about music and design until two am. His living room is full of books and has exposed rafters. And he thinks I am beautiful. For the first time since I have been away, I have met someone who can introduce me to music, someone who knows more than I. Hes more well read. He adores Belle and Sebastian and Tom Robbins, my passions. I have a new band to lust over, The Concretes. I'm all fluttery inside! Love Kate +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Fw: Chickfactor/Stevie J
by Peter Miller 03 Dec '04

03 Dec '04

>dress code: lubitsch, fitzgerald, lartigue, sturges, kiki, berkeley, cahun, >cukor What's that then, plus-fours and loud-hailers? I think I will go on the Friday, Friday 10 December. If I can afford it. Anybody have the inside dope on the special guests? Cheers, Peter +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Christmas Exchange Deadline is Tomorrow
by grainne lynch 29 Nov '04

29 Nov '04

Hey, This is a quick reminder to let you know that tomorrow is the last day that I am taking names for the Sinister Christmas Present Exchange, so if you want to take part send me your details now! Send me; *Your Name *Your Email Address *Your Full Address (of where you will be at Christmas time) * The number of presents you would like to send out (since it will correspond with the presents you will receive) * Whether you have a preference of sending to someone inside your country or not, since foreign postage can be expensive. If geography makes no difference, then there's no need to mention anything. However, please note that this only works if you live in a place where there will most likely be lots of other Sinisters. I hate to break your heart but you're probably the only one on here in Antarctica. *Please, please, please put "Sinister Christmas Present Exchange" (or something to that effect) in the subject line. It will make everything so much easier! I'm looking forward to hearing from you! Grainne. -- _______________________________________________ Find what you are looking for with the Lycos Yellow Pages http://r.lycos.com/r/yp_emailfooter/http://yellowpages.lycos.com/default.as… +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-+ Snipp snapp snut, sa var sagan slut! +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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