allo, i think i'll attempt to use headings, so you can pick and choose what you'd like to delete/read. this attempt at politeness has of course completely ruined my attempt to enter this post in an angry manner, so just pretend it didn't happen... T.O. BASHING Oi!! What is with this? EA whoever said...
...I think my original conclusions about Toronto were correct :\
Just because you didn't get a chance to meet any other sinisterites, DOESN'T mean we're snotty people, not that you said that, but you certainly conveyed it in different words. All the listees that I have met, either in depth or only spoken a few words with, were wonderfully *lov-e-ly* people. I was pleasantly surprised that there were no 'too cool for you' types around. But I guess you'll never know.... LOLLING On then, to Mother Nature and the cruel little trick she's playing with the weather over here. It's almost October and is meant to feel that way! Last week I was wearing mittens and settling into the whole university routine again...but now this....this....heat wave of sorts that we are having. It's tricking me into the summer routine of absolute laziness (yeah...like you ever get out of that routine deb...), putting off school work to lie around parks, listening to music, contemplating the future and watching squirrels romp around. Dammit!! I have an essay due tomorrow and I can't seem to get around to it. Good on me for getting out of the rut that is procrastination. Posting to Sinister is also key to escaping. DEATH :( And I must add my two cents on the death issue, as it seems to have been a key factor in my leap from childhood bliss to adulthood reality (insanity). I think my fear stems in the loss of others really, not myself. I think I avoided relationships for a long time because the thought of loosing someone was soo painful...and then I felt it. Whoever said 'It is better to have loved and lost, then to have never loved at all', must not have experienced it. I know many will object, but that is how I feel. Alasdair said :
assuming there's no afterlife which I do, you're basically unconscious for ever. And the thought of just not knowing anything, not being anything FOR THE REST OF ETERNITY just scared the living shit out of me, and I'm not sure why.
I don't want to go too far into this, but that (above) is basically what revived my....errmmmm...spiritual side, belief in *up above* or *the great beyond*. There are soo many people around these days willing to take me on, ask why I believe the things I do, and one simple answer I have, as childish and naive as it may seem, is that it makes me happy and less scared of the unknown. Is that really soo bad? Ohhhh....I won't take this any further... GATHERING? On a lighter note, if anyone is still reading, a few sinisterites will be going to Vox on friday, after Kado's (whoops!) Steven's (heehe) glowing review of last week. I too am reluctant, as they (bangers e le mash) also host BlowUp, but apparently the different night and different venue make all the...well, difference. So anyone who has been aching to meet some sinister coos, email one of us and we'll meet, possibly in a pub (most likely) before hand. Alright, I will keep quite now and leave sinister land...(yet again...boo) luv deb xxxxxxx i miss you all :( ______________________________________________________ Get Your Private, Free Email at http://www.hotmail.com +----------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the reborn Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail "sinister@majordomo.net". To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to "majordomo@majordomo.net". WWW: http://www.majordomo.net/sinister +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "tech-heads and students" +-+ +-+ "the cardie wearing biscuit nibbling belle & sebastian list" +-+ +-+ "jelly-filled danishes" +-+ +----------------------------------------------------------------------+