September 2001 - Sinister

Sinister: pause, and feel, and hark
by Emily Wilska 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

Sinister, I'm too numb and stupid with grief to be able to put my thoughts into intelligible words, but I want to share with you all what is, for me, a means of getting through all this. So much has changed, but all is never lost. Keep living, Emily Human beings suffer, They torture one another, They get hurt and get hard. No poem or play or song Can fully right a wrong Inflicted and endured. The innocent in gaols Beat on their bars together. A hunger-striker's father Stands in the graveyard dumb. The police widow in veils Faints at the funeral home. History says, Don't hope On this side of the grave. But then, once in a lifetime The longed-for tidal wave Of justice can rise up, And hope and history rhyme. So hope for a great sea-change On the far side of revenge. Believe that a further shore Is reachable from here. Believe in miracles And cures and healing wails. Call miracle self-healing: The utter, self-revealing Double-take of feeling. If there's fire on the mountain Or lightning and storm And a god speaks from the sky That means someone is hearing The outcry and the birth-cry Of new life at its term. It means once in a lifetime That justice can rise up And hope and history rhyme. --Seamus Heaney, from The Cure at Troy +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: sophie's new york story
by AN 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

this is a mail from a former sinisteree, sophie from new york, to you through me. please take time and read how the wtc-tragedy affected her. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- "hi. my name is sophie and i live in new york. i was a memeber of sinister for a long time, but i am not any more. i really want to write something to you guys, but if i sign up now, i wont be able to write it for a long time. i was wondering if you could send this to sinister for me. i would really appreciate it. if you could just change the title, cut this part out and replace it with a note saying this is from me. Thank you so much. "My name is sophie and i go to school in tribeca, new york. My school building is two blocks (short blocks) away from the world trade center. Yesterday I watched it be hit and collapse from my 7th story Biology room. It was the scariest thing i have ever seen in my life. At first it was real cute. you know, "some drunk pilot flew into the world trade center, haha, theres a gaping steaming whole in it. cant wait til lunch when i can go out and really see it." Then when another one hit it was confusing. many of my friends had watched from outside and were shaken. my friend patrick said he had seen the plane of civilians go into it and at least ten people go flying out of the buildiing and fall to the ground, two blocks south down the street. i was in the basement when the first one fell. the world started shaking and the lights went dead. people were screaming and crying and the men with suits and badges rushed in screaming "Secret service! get to the other side of the building!" Everyone thought there was a third plane and they had fucked up and hit us instead. like how they landed early when they hit the pentagon. they slid into the side of it. if they had landed early in NY, it would have been on us. After the first one fell, they still werent letting us out of the building. They were calling names on the PA and i think it was for people whose parents were here to pick them up. if my name would have been called, i dont think i would have left. i dont think i could have. it was to unknown. if they would hit again, where they would hit. if there was anyways to get home. if the subway tunnels would be bombed. They sent me up to my biology class. it was on the 7th floor, south side, and the entire south wall was a glass window. Our bio teacher never even showed up. i figure she booked when the first plane hit. So we sat in the room, watching a giant cloud of smoke try to envelop the school, and the top of the remaining world trade center, and people leaning out, looking around, and flinging themselves throught the window. I watched at least 8 people commit suicide from the top of the world trade center before it collapsed. I walked home, back to brooklyn that day, and there were soldiers walking throught the streets with big guns, there were helicopters and airplains going through the air. While walking, someone would look at the sky, and everyone on the crowded new york street would stop walking and turn around to see whatever they were pointing at up there. I've been imagining airplane noises all night, and listening to the people crying in my head. There were too many people who were sobbing crying last night, and i could hear every one of them in my head. I dont want to go to war. i dont want to ever have to see anything like that again in my life. It was too close, and too real, and NYC it too vulnerable and delicate. I dont think i would be able to handle anything like that again. I know most of you are European, and i thought maybe you would like to know what happened on less of a newscast level, so here, thats what happened. I hope this thing is over soon, and i hope as few people as possible get involved. peace, and keep safe." -sophie tintori (spiticuss(a)aol.com) +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: We woke up one morning, and fell a little further down...
by Photojenni27＠aol.com 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

I woke up this morning, and wondered if yesterday had all been some sickening nightmare, that I had fallen asleep with the TV showing some Hollywood disaster and the details had just seeped into my subconcious. Yet when I went downstairs for a cup of coffee, I saw the pictures all over again. Is it just me or does it still seem so eerily unreal? It is like the whole world has been watching a State sponsored Hollywood blockbuster. But it's not. And everytime I see and hear more, I can't stop shaking. Yesterday I watched the pictures on the news over and over...and I still can't believe such malice exists in the world. I first found out at work, and the whole factory and office stopped and crowded around a TV to watch fire and devastation. Sickened, I went outside for a cigarette. Halfway through one of my colleagues told me the second tower had collapsed and before they were showing pictures of people jumping to their death. All day I physically shook and felt sick. That was only from looking at the pictures. God only knows the emotions that the relatives of the dead are feeling at the moment. I come from an American family, although I live in Manchester and have lived in England for most of my life. I myself have dual nationality. My mother is American. I have a large family who are spread out across America. We've been trying to phone America now for over 24 hours. As far as I know, none of them are in New York, but it's mainly for our peace of mind. This is the first time that I have felt myself to be truly American....I apologise if that sounds strange, but I see holes ripped in masonry and office paper falling like black confetti for the dead and just want to rush to America and protect those I love. I want to fall at the feet of the Government of both countries and beg them not to be too hasty, because I am so scared for those that I love. I am sickened. I am angry. I am absolutely petrified. But I do not want War. Saying this, I do believe in retaliation against those who committed this act. But violence breeds violence. And fingers being pointed before the culprits come forward is never the way to solve these problems. I would like to think that the people who committed and induced this act will recieve punishment of the eternal kind. I am not religious. But this morning I lit candles in my local Cathedral for the dead on my way to work. My thoughts are with those on this list who have lost people. I hope you find solace in whatever way you can. Music always helps for me. Someone talked about listening to Godspeedyoublackemperor! throughout this. I know I have been. "The dead flag blues" fits the apocalyptic scenes so well. I apologise if this is clumsy. I am still in shock and more numb than I ever thought possible. I just hope that no one is going through this alone. Our world has changed and grown scarier and colder. Lets just hope that we don't become too hardened by it all. Cay xXx +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: a different view
by Adam uni 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

hello all. first off, of course, I want to offer my deepest sympathies to anyone that lost someone in the terrorist attacks. I apologise if I have missed some posts (there have been sooo many!), but I didn't notice anyone with a different point of view. Everyone is being very loyal to the USA, and this is even causing normal people to become racists, the target being any arabs. I'm not a fan of Islam, or religion at all for that matter, I prefer a belief in yourself and fellow people (I think that's humanism), but Islam is a religion I particularly dislike. Never the less I have nothing against muslim people, of people who follow any other religion, simply for their religios beliefs. Where is he going with this - you may ask. Well I'm fed up of the we support america attitude. American have been responsable for the deaths of thousands of palestines, by giving aid money to those Israely war mongers. Israel wouldn't have come about without help from the USA to fight off the arabs. Now, the arabs strike back, no worse than the way israely's and other nation have attacked them. I am in no way condoning the actions of whoever did this. In fact I think they should have electrodes attatched to their bollox, and be hooked up to the national grid till eventual death. As for Bin Laden - he is a LOONEY! He commits these acts in the name of religion (Although we did the same in the crusades), which I think is bollox, he's just a fu*k up. But as for the inocent arabs who are going to suffer when NATO blows the f*ck out of them, it's not on! well, thats my 2 pence worth. I apprieciatte that this may offend some people, so I apologise profusley, It was not my aim. I'd apprieciatte any feedback on this. cheers adam p.s. Thanks sooo much for the rythm gina! +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: thank you to b&s
by Andrea Kittenmouse 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

Hello everybody, Sorry to add to all the posts. I know it's busy. I actually read every single one of the four sinister digests I got this morning from top to bottom though. I don't have anything to say other than I'm in complete shock. Is this reality? I decided not to go to work yesterday--I went out to my mom and dad's house to get my car fixed, and I watched the news all afternoon on their tv. Saw the plane crash into tower 2 a thousand times from a thousand different angles on five different tv networks. Saw footage of people jumping to their deaths, I guess to avoid being burned to death in the building. All those people. It's on a scale way beyond anyone's imagination. Got scared because I'm supposed to fly through Newark airport in less than two weeks on my way to study this fall in Scotland. Now I'm glad I'm going to Scotland, though. The American politicians on the tv and radio reacted in the most disgusting way. Using people's fear and religious feelings to manipulate them. People say that if you see certain things, you are changed, as in, your brain is physically changed. I guess they've done scientific studies on it. I'm sorry, I'm rambling on and the real reason I wrote is because I wanted to say thank you to Stuart and Stevie and Isobel and Bobby and Sarah and Mick and Richard and all the rest of the musicians who played with Belle and Sebastian last night in Portland. Thanks for saying something, Stuart, at the beginning of the show. Thanks for that first song. Thanks for the love song to Portland. But mostly thanks for just being there, playing your music, and making us feel like the world isn't a horrible place for a little while. Thanks. andrea _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Helplessness of another kind
by Peter Carter 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

I tried donating to the disaster fund on amazon and it told me that the postcode for my address is incorrect. The correct postcode for my correct address. Does anyone know of another way to donate? A website or a number? Please e-mail me off list. As for the event, I didn't post before (though I wanted to) because I don't have anything to say. I don't live in America and I don't have relatives in NY, so anything I said would probably seem hollow and stupid. The only thing I want to stress is THIS IS NOT A WAR. People keep saying it's the next pearl harbour, and the perpetrators must be punished and so on and so forth. THIS IS NOT PEARL HARBOUR, there is no enemy yet. Even if it was, is would be Islamic FUNDEMENTALISTS, and not the nation of Islam as people (not on Sinister I hasten to add) are suggesting. Beyond the event, it is the reaction that sickens me. People are scapegoating without knowing the facts. One Sininistrine said her friend was signing up to the Navy. I would urge her to ask him to reconsider. If, as she says, he has deep reservations about US politics then this is more than a mistake, it is a tragedy. As a kneejerk reaction, this could get him into a postion he really shouldn't be in. What if America decides to go to war against a country who turns out to have nothing to do with this? How will your friend feel then? To avenge a pointless killing should there be a pointless killing? I think at this point this quote seems more than appropriate (much as in other times I would balk at the preteniousness of it, not to mention it's cliched nature)... "He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he himself become a monster. If you gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into you. " My deepest sympathies to everyone in America... for the very very little that's worth. Peter +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Re: Sinister: A response from the U.S. east coast
by Jeff Burke 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

I have to say what I think about this WWIII type stuff. It won't be a war, anymore than the "war on drugs" is a war. A was involves two or more nation-states. What we have here isn't a nationstate attacking the US, you have deranged lunatics striking at the foundation of civilization. Hearing Tony Blair speak makes me pine for such an eloquent leader. THe same for former Israeli Prime Minister Ehud Barak, more elegant in his second language then bush is in his first. The Gulf-war should have showed us that there won't be a "war" again in the sense of world war 1 or WWII. It's not the same world there's too much technology and the difference in the parties involved make it a foregone conclusion. There's not doubt about the outcome should the US-led West initiate hostilities against on of these "harbors of terrorism" Syria, Iraq, Iran, Pakistan, or Afghanistan. I feel very bad for these countries if they're somehow tied to the terrorists. Because losts of innocent civilians will be killed It's a horrible dilemma isn't it? I mean obviously violence begets violence but if these people are willing to instigate violence and there's no response why would they stop? so what do you listen to? Your head that says you must use restraint and only try to capture the people that did this (most of whom are dead...) or your heart that cries for some sense of base atavistic revenge? It's horrible and there's no right answer... jb >From: "Kimberly Girton" <kimgirton(a)hotmail.com> >Reply-To: "Kimberly Girton" <kimgirton(a)hotmail.com> >To: sinister(a)missprint.org >Subject: Sinister: A response from the U.S. east coast >Date: Tue, 11 Sep 2001 22:19:18 -0400 > >I haven't posted in ages, but in light of the terrorist attack, I came to >the Sinister List looking for comfort, some sense of solidarity, a feeling >that people around the world understand the pain we feel at this time, and >send their prayers. > >I will thank God every day for all of you on the list, and the fact that >you >care about us, no matter where we are. You are the only reason the voice >in >my head that is saying, "The world has gone to Hell" isn't taking over my >entire thought process. > >I'd like to thank all of you who have offered your condolences to those of >us on the east coast of the U.S. As a born-and-bred eastcoaster, a former >college student in NY and a resident of D.C., my entire life - family, >friends - is located within Washington D.C. and NYC. I am positive I am >not >the only one who can claim this story. I am not the only person who spent >agonizing hours trying to track down family and friends, only to be met >with >tied up phone lines and the rebroadcasting of TV footage I needn't see more >than once. Even once was one too many. By the grace of God, all of my >friends who worked within a block of the Pentagon are safe, and all I know >in Manhattan who were forced to flee their buildings are safe and accounted >for at this time. I am VERY lucky. My father is stuck in St. Louis and >won't be able to leave until Thursday. A friend, and employee of the NSA, >is stuck in Seattle on a business trip. As this sort of thing is in the >NSA's jurisdiction to prevent, my heart goes out to her and her coworkers. >They do the best they can every day defending our country. Ubfortunately, >they are vulnerable to error. > >It is indescribable how much those of us who were affected by this tragedy >appreciate the kind words from fellow Sinisterees. From the bottom of my >heart - thank you. > >The other main reason I write is to address the fears stated on this list >of >WWIII, etc. To start: yes, I am angry because someone has attacked U.S. >soil, and my understanding that the U.S. is not particularly popular around >the world does nothing to temper that anger. The fact remains that this is >my country, and hundreds of thousands of innocent people have been injured, >killed, or otherwise affected by an act of blatant, calculated cowardice. >We will fear for our lives for weeks. We will jump at the slightest touch >and we will instinctively duck at the sound of aircraft. > >I am not an advocate of violence. I was angry and disappointed when >President Bush took office. But never have I, nor any of my friends who >have always held the same political sentiments I have, been more consoled >by >the fact that we have a world leader willing to do whatever he must to >ensure our national safety. We find ourselves turning to our leaders for >solace, whether we voted for them or not. A military jeep drove up my >street earlier today on patrol. I have never in my life been so happy to >see what I normally condemn as "a symbol of our ability to bully half of >the >world." > >No one wants WWIII, and that includes the United States. We will do what >we >have to do to avoid it, but I plead with you as a U.S. citizen -- please >support us and our government as we, the American people, have sworn to do. >Criticism of U.S. politics and foreign relations doesn't do a bit of good. >One of my best friends is a staunch member of the Communist Party. He has >always expressed his discontent with America and our governmental >officials. > Today, in an act signifying the insurmountable nationalism we are able to >muster, he gathered information for enrollment in the U.S. Navy and will be >signing up tomorrow. > >It is a sad state of affairs that we have been pulled into a fight out of >which we have previously tried to stay. Though retaliation is inevitable, >we are STILL a nation focused on laws and human decency. It is difficult >to >maintain our composure as we harbor anger and overwhelming fear, but I am >confident that our leaders will not lash out and add senseless insult to an >injury felt around the world. Had you asked me yesterday what I think of >our highest political officials, I would have made a "Texan inbreed" joke, >to quote another Sinisteree. But in the light of the events of the past 12 >hours, I am ready and willing to support my government in whatever they >choose to do. > >The rescue workers will be on call for days. We will be cleaning up the >aftermath for weeks. We will still be in shock for months. I am >personally >terrified to move in a week to a suburb of D.C., as I have been planning to >do for several months now, because our new apartment is closer to the >federal and financial districts of D.C. I send my sincere condolences to >those who live directly in NYC and in the inner workings of D.C. None of >our lives will ever be the same. > >Please, when posting to the list, which reaches many natives of American >soil, remember that in theory, it is easy to condemn acts of defense and/or >retaliation as excessive, or damaging to the idea of world peace. But it >is >not so easy to entertain rhetoric when every five minutes, another military >vehicle flies over your house, when you break down in tears because you >have >finally tracked down an old friend who works three blocks down from the NYC >World Trade Center, when family and friends were scheduled to fly today and >all you can do is thank God they weren't on one of those four planes that >met such a horrible fate this morning. > >Though it is small comfort, I will continue to replay in my mind the scene >of our members of the U.S. Congress gathered on the Capitol Building steps, >singing "God Bless America." It is this unity of purpose and nationalism >that gives me the only comfort I can find. We as a nation will do what is >necessary to ensure the safety of our citizens, as dictated by our national >leaders. It is unfair for anyone to ask us to do otherwise. > >Again, thank you for your support, and may all of you be kept safe. > >Sincerely, >K. Girton >Washington, D.C. > >_________________________________________________________________ >Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp > >+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ > +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ > To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe > send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to > majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister >+-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ >+-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ >+-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ >+-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ >+-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ >+-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ >+-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ _________________________________________________________________ Get your FREE download of MSN Explorer at http://explorer.msn.com/intl.asp +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: "through"
by Gordon 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

Peace Finding a way through. Gordon *hugs* to you all. +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: do something pretty while you can...
by AN 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

just out of the nursery. since none of you know me yet, my name is annika, soon 21 years old and, like a handful of sinisterees, i'm from sweden. i won't say much about me, that's not why i'm writing right now. i was going to wait another while before posting anything. but i feel i can't. i didn't find out before 7pm yesterday (1pm nyc time). i didn't believe it then. i don't think i have yet completely understood the full of it. i cried last night, watching the news. i fell asleep listening to "we rule the school". sometimes we think we do. sometimes we feel nothing can damage us, there's nothing we can't say, nothing we can't prevent. we rule the school. do we? i can hardly read my sinister mails today. my sight keeps getting blurred from tears. and i feel horrified. i want to do something, but i can't think of anything to do. except writing. it's a really nice day. sunshine, blue sky and a few clouds. who could ever know, who would've guessed? i'm scared. i should go out and do something pretty... i pray for you, i think of you, i suffer with you. but i also can't help feeling relieved it wasn't me and i'm sorry. for the short time i've been a sinisteree this list has been a source of joy and comfort for me. you're lovely people, remember that, believe that. let's pray there will be no more wars. let's hope somehow this will be solved without anyone innocent being punished. almighty god in heaven, your people are in pain. i do not know why this had to happen, i am too simple. but i pray that you are with the american nation this very minute. comfort them, help them help eachother, walk with them and don't let them fall any further. i know your angels are crying. when i close my eyes i can almost hear them. i cry with them. lord, take your people in your arms and protect them against the evil that yesterday chocked the entire world. let them feel you're with them, let them feel you love them. god bless america. amen love /an +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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Sinister: Stunned.
by Spike 12 Sep '01

12 Sep '01

I was wondering around Aberdeen city centre, wondering how I could get the money for the Stanley Kubrick DVD box set I've seen when I found out that the World Trade Centre was on fire. By the time I got home it was no more. Shit. I am stunned and shocked. The scenario would not be out of place in a Bond Film. The best Hollywood screenwriters could not have written this. It still seems unreal. At first I wondered why people were jumping to their deaths. Then I realised that in the same situation I would do the same. A big "Fuck you" to the terrorists. I'll die when I want not when you want me to. I'm not religious, but my prayers are with the people of America at this time. I have had my issues with your country before, but no-one deserves this. I remember what it was like in Scotland after Lockerbie but this is much much worse. I don't like capitalism. My form of protest however would use a computer virus, or taking part in an anti-capitalism protest. Not causing the deaths of thousands of innocent people. But I don't believe that the WTC was targeted purely on that basis. I think it was also attacked because it is highly visible. Whether or not the destruction was planned or an accident is not known. At this time one quote which springs to mind is from, bizarrely enough, the Manic Street Preachers. "It's easy to see, It's easy to see. To see only white where colour should be. It's easy to feel, It's easy to feel, But it's not good enough even though it's real." Take care. Will == "It's a big rock. Can't wait to tell my friends. They don't have a rock this big." Spike, Becoming, Part One _____________________________________________________________ Get email for your site ---> http://www.everyone.net +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+ +---+ Brought to you by the Sinister mailing list +---+ To send to the list mail sinister(a)missprint.org. To unsubscribe send "unsubscribe sinister" or "unsubscribe sinister-digest" to majordomo(a)missprint.org. WWW: http://www.missprint.org/sinister +-+ "sinsietr is a bit freaky" - stuart david, looper +-+ +-+ "legion of bedroom saddo devotees" "peculiarly deranged fanbase" +-+ +-+ "pasty-faced vegan geeks... and we LOST!" - NME April 2000 +-+ +-+ "frighteningly named Sinister List organisation" - NME May 2000 +-+ +-+ "sick posse of f**ked in the head psycho-fans" - NME June 2001 +-+ +-+ Nee, nee mun pish, chan pai dee kwa +-+ +-------------------------------------------------------------------------+

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